Why Is It Wrong Only When I Do It?
Why is it wrong only when I do it?
Why do people do that? Why does people assume that I don't want to interact with them? If they say that they're not talking to me because I'm not talking to them, aren't they doing the same thing? They're not talking either though. Then, is it wrong of me to think that people doesn't want to talk me because they are not talking with me? Why does people think that it should always be me to start the conversation. They say that if I want, I am the one that needs to put in the effort. So, does that mean no one wants my friendship? Could I really be the wrong one in this?
Each day that passes by, I'm just hoping that someone would that take step to come and talk to me. That I'll meet someone who is willing to understand that Loweena is like this. That Loweena needs her time with people. Someone who would be kind enough to make conversations with me, even when I'm quiet, don't know what to say or how to react. It started in 2016, since I last had a friend. I hope that people would understand that, I need my time to interact because I wasted all my years living without a friend. I really thought everything would be different once days passes by. But days turned into week, weeks turned into months and months had turned into years long ago but yet here I am still hoping that things would change. That soon I will be able to laugh and make memories too.
Nowadays people are not even smiling at me. Or even if they did, it it being hid behind their mask. It is reminding me of my Matriculation days. I'm scared that the same thing might happen again. I'm scared that I'll have to go through university days without no one by my side again. What happened this morning, hurt me so much. The distinct change in her expression when she saw and when she saw the person behind me, hurt me so much. I want things to change and miracle to happen. I wish people stop assuming. It's hard for me too. I don't want to end up alone. I'm scared of that. Please listen to me god. Please please please do any kind of miracle. Or at least heal me, so I won't be bothered of these things again.
I want to live too. I'm sick of surviving.
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Loweena Gonasegaran 🐋 💜 방탄소년단 아미 💜 🍂 𝕀 𝕖𝕩𝕚𝕤𝕥 🍂
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