If I join them I wont be happy. I'll feel uncomfortable. I dont want myself to get hurt again. I'm fine being like this π
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One of the precious thing i've ever received as a gift π
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Today I was asked if I want to take in charge of this certain part of the project. The first thing that came out of my mouth when I was encountered with such thing is that "Me?". Just one word, but it made me see how much lack confidence I have on myself. I was in doubt if I can do it. But I want to believe myself more. I'm so afraid of getting lost. I wish to be more courageous, even when I know for sure I'll get lost. I still want to be lost and find the way back. I wish I'm brave enough to do that.
The life i always wanted to live is got to live by others. Meanwhile i'm living a life others are dreaming to live. Coming to think of it i have never lived the life i've always wanted. It's sad to think that way but i have to be grateful with what i have rather than only thinking of those things that i dont have. I'm just not blessed enough.
I thought that for the first time ever I am going to fight for what I want till the end. But in the end, I gave up. Again. But this time it wasn't because I wasn't brave enough but I didn't knew if that is really what I want, if that is worth fighting for. What if it wasn't what I wanted after all?
Today i fall asleep without watching bts live at wembley.. i'm not gonna lie i'm crying right now π what is wrong with me π«π«π«π« why am i like this i deserved to die ππππππππππππππππππππππππππππππ
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