Like An Arrow In The Blue Sky 📸

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I prefer sunrise more than sunset. When the sun rises it'll took away all the darkness and gives brightness to the world which is also the hope to begin our new day.

Perhaps the reason this night looks so beautiful is not because of these stars or lights, but us. ❤

Why is it wrong only when I do it?

Why do people do that? Why does people assume that I don't want to interact with them? If they say that they're not talking to me because I'm not talking to them, aren't they doing the same thing? They're not talking either though. Then, is it wrong of me to think that people doesn't want to talk me because they are not talking with me? Why does people think that it should always be me to start the conversation. They say that if I want, I am the one that needs to put in the effort. So, does that mean no one wants my friendship? Could I really be the wrong one in this?

Each day that passes by, I'm just hoping that someone would that take step to come and talk to me. That I'll meet someone who is willing to understand that Loweena is like this. That Loweena needs her time with people. Someone who would be kind enough to make conversations with me, even when I'm quiet, don't know what to say or how to react. It started in 2016, since I last had a friend. I hope that people would understand that, I need my time to interact because I wasted all my years living without a friend. I really thought everything would be different once days passes by. But days turned into week, weeks turned into months and months had turned into years long ago but yet here I am still hoping that things would change. That soon I will be able to laugh and make memories too.

Nowadays people are not even smiling at me. Or even if they did, it it being hid behind their mask. It is reminding me of my Matriculation days. I'm scared that the same thing might happen again. I'm scared that I'll have to go through university days without no one by my side again. What happened this morning, hurt me so much. The distinct change in her expression when she saw and when she saw the person behind me, hurt me so much. I want things to change and miracle to happen. I wish people stop assuming. It's hard for me too. I don't want to end up alone. I'm scared of that. Please listen to me god. Please please please do any kind of miracle. Or at least heal me, so I won't be bothered of these things again.

I want to live too. I'm sick of surviving.

Little But Great Happiness 💝

We were doing group discussion today to find an answer for a question. There was a boy in my group. After I did my calculation I showed it to teacher and my answers were all correct. That boy also did his calculation and asked me if his answer was right. I compared it to mine and told him that his answers are correct too.

He smiled so brightly when he found out that his answers were correct. He looked so proud. That's when I realized even little things can give someone great happiness. 💕

Learn to fight alone no matter how hard it is. Because no one will stand with you until the end. Either evryone will leave at somepoint or you'll leave everyone at somepoint. Being alone and happy without depending on anyone is the best gift you can give yourself.

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I told the moon buried behind the dark clouds that "It's okay. Soon those dark clouds will pass by and evryone will be able to see how brightly you can shine."

Then, I realized those are the words i need the most and i supposed to say them to myself first.

Don't worry dearself soon your struggles and worries will be gone just like the dark clouds and we'll be happy and bright again 🙂

Kdrama

Hardest thing about kdrama is you have to wait for 1 week to watch new episode 😭😭

Day 3 of Semester 4 as Marine Biology Undergraduate - Part 2