I listened to Bukowski this morning, and I realized my writing is not raw enough, angry enough, drunk enough; I even drink red wine instead of cheap beer. I detest cigarettes, never served in war, or roamed the streets looking to settle on the bed of some dudeâs crude floor. Iâm too feminine, too much an inherent believer in the quality of people. My heart is adversely set against his heretical ways. Iâve never been stabbed in the back by love, or if I have, I pulled the prick out years ago, and time and forgiveness have sealed the scar over. I might have even forgotten where the wounds are buried. I never carved mistakes out of people, stole time in self destruction, stared into the holes of anotherâs deceit. Iâm not modern enough to be a true angst-filled American poet. I donât possess the tongue to squeeze lemon over my open lesions letting them ooze into a glass I pour out as charity for the masses. Come, let me sacrifice hopelessness for the voyeurs. No, I only know to write of the way his lips taste the soft worlds within my seascape, the slant of patchwork light filtering through the hallway window, jewel-toned shells that satiate my harlequin heart. I only know of simple subjects; Iâve somehow been denied the stench or overlooked the cracked places harboring broken bottles and blood-stained lips. Does that make me any less a poet, I wonder.
upon reading Bukowski//
Rhapsodyinblue45
4.8.18
Poetry is when your heart speaks,
Resonates through,
My heart listens,
Spills out words in response,
Your heart smiles.
- DG
ââa hymn to the love that dares not speak its name.â not for all eyes but just for those women who have walked soft in the dark dark light. i give you my praise - a song of many textures and moods.â from the cover of pointblank times: a lesbian/feminist publication, vol. 2 no. 5, june 1976
âI want to fall in love with every single piece of you, the soft ones ,but also the hard ones. I want to know the real you : your pretty side,but also the dark side. I want to be by your side when you lose control, when youâre sad,when youâre happy, when youâre a dreamer. Every part of you belongs to me , I want to know it and I want to love it . For short I want to love you.â
â @maraa14
Gotta nip them in the bud from now on
âI love the handful of the earth you are. Because of its meadows, vast as a planet, I have no other star. You are my replica of the multiplying universe. Your wide eyes are the only light I know from extinguished constellations; your skin throbs like the streak of a meteor through rain. Your hips were that much of the moon for me; your deep mouth and its delights, that much sun; your heart, fiery with its long red rays, was that much ardent light, like honey in the shade. So I pass across your burning form, kissing youâcompact and planetary, my dove, my globe.â
â Pablo Neruda, âXVI,â transl. Stephen Tapscott, from One Hundred Love Sonnets, The Poetry of Pablo Neruda, ed. Ilan Stavans (Farrar, Straus, and Giroux, 2003)
show me the places where the others gave you scars (insp.)
â¨Walk on the Starline â¨gifs made by me :)
03.02.2018
The rain, to make less differences among the ones I love.
I didnât know this is what love looks like: truth, acceptance, devotion, you were my moonlight. I love like no other, honey gold eyes. My Muse. I wanna steal the sky for you, give you the world. I dream of you and of what it couldâve been. Iâm proud of you, though. Thereâs a lot to learn from you, my muse, the living embodiment of my mantra, but I was too naive to see it. I wasnât ready for you. At least I was impartial enough to see you deserve better. Low vibrational, I was I was. So brief and short lived by God, did you mark me. This loss is so familiar, mustâve lasted eons,hell how I long for you, Iâll long for you for more eons. To mould our universes into one. Your honey gold eyes forever ingrained in my mind, you were my Frida I see myself in you, my mantra, embodiment of femininity, sapphic love and much more. Forever believe we couldâve been so much more than we could ever possibly imagine. you and I, a statement. A revolution like no other, it tasted like one the very first time our lips met, honey gold eyes. I could swear even Cupid envied us. I envy anyone who is lucky enough to lay their eyes on your honey gold eyes. These are words I never thought I could write, feelings I never thought I could feel. I long for you with every breath I take. My honey gold eyes.
is there anything more fun than creating something and being able to say âthis is how I feelâ