My Mental Health Has Been Really Bad The Past Couple Months And I Feel Like It's Getting Worse Tbh. I

something to put into your script if you shift: no heartburn / acid reflux

I got Brian and I felt seriously called out. I do often try to be funny because I want people to like me and hide my feeling from everyone except my best friends whom I'm closest too. i also have ADHD lol.And I often do feel like I'm the stupid one because of it. I feel like my ADHD causes me to be more childish in a bad way. I worry that if I don't make everything I do and say agree to whatever my friends like they'll hate or leave me. Ig I'm working on that ... Sort of haha 😅

You know it'd be absolutely crazy if you guys took my quiz and found out what Marble Hornets character you are. Then reblogged with your answers

I'm pretty sure I shifted twice recently. Just out of the blue. I'm excited about it but in the moment it was just normal and I didn't even question it.

It wasn't my dr but little differences. One night I woke up to ocean sounds playing on my TV when I was thinking about shifting to a mermaid/merfolk dr.

This one is a little embarrassed to admit cause its a bad habit. My vape had died, and i never plugged it up. I woke up in the morning, and it was at almost 50%, and i was so confused.

Edit: Happy to say now! I've quit vapping

I haven't fully gotten my excitement back for shifting. My love and care for it seems to just have disappeared. Though I love the idea of shifting to undertale. Mostly because I think it's a nice place where I can be chill and not have to worry about anything eith some of my comfort characters

So I may have had a shift last night. Or a mini shift? Honestly I cannot tell.

I thought it was a dream, though in the middle of it, I became super aware of things going on around me. It was like it was in real life, but everything was darker, like my dreams are and kinda monotone.

The beginning of it is very foggy I don't remember much. The layout of the paled I was in was strange so I'm not going to explain that in detail. I was jn my room and I saw Ghosy and captain Price in thus building.

My memory had been wiped apparently, so I couldn't remember Ghost, who is my s/o

I was in my room and was looking around. I found my dog tags. Thought they didn't have my name or my Dr name idk what name it was tbh. It said I was Kia on the back of them which was strange.

I remember wanting to change my clothes and actually doing so, so it was so odd.

I had a dream the other night about correcting people about my name. They kept calling my my cr name, so I told them, no my name is "Ena" which is my Dr name. It felt so weird being called that but I really liked it lol

So in a different post I mentioned having relationship stuff and I was in one. He was a bit clingy and wanted to talk and hang out all the time and it took me away from shifting. It wasn't for me u didn't like thst I didn't seem to get space and for other reasons I ended jt.

Now, I can focus on shifting again, and it was a nice break. It think I needed to be at ease last night. I dreamt of my s/o, and it was lovely. I'm just scared off feeling suffocated in a relationship there even though I know I'll feel completely different their then I do here

This is straight up just going to be a rant about things and my own insecurities. I'm not expecting anybody to actually read or respond to this, it's just for me to write my emotions down somewhere where I feel like it matters

First thing. I'm terrified of posting anything anywhere. I don't take criticism very well, and I'm scared of getting hate for things I talk about. When it comes to reality shifting things and my art.

I never post my art anywhere. Not because I think it's bad. I actually think my artwork is good. I beleove I'm good ag character design, and shading and all that. What I am insecure about is that I can't draw poses or anatomy whatsoever. I've tried and tried and I can never get it right, and I've been drawing for about 7 years or so. I always use a pose ref I find in pintrest to draw. I'm scared people will hate me for doing that, so I never post my art anywhere. I hardly even show my close friends my drawings.

Another thing, I think I act far to childish for my age. I'm gonna be 20 in a couple months, but I daydream and qander around my room and act like scenarios like a child would.

If I get interested in a topic or Fandom I make a self insert oc or character cause I wanna imagine I'm in whatever I'm focused on. I give these characters names I'd like being called, or multiple characters from diffrent shows/games/fandoms the same name cause I veiw these characters more as myself than a fictional character. I think this is pretty childish as well.

There are so many things I do that I absolutely hate about myself. Maybe voicing these things will make me feel better. Maybe I'll find some people who feel the same. Whatever. I just wanted to voice some things. I'm really not expecting anybody to interact with this shit show of a post.

they're here. fucking fuck they're here and there's already misinformation being spread. we need to hide.

𝒊'𝒎 𝒌𝒊𝒅𝒅𝒊𝒏𝒈.

welcome, shifttokers! we're glad you could join us, and we're happy to teach you anything you want to know! however, the community over here is a bit (vastly) different than it is on tiktok. so a few rules: 1: if you don't like it, scroll past it. if you notice this person on your dash a few times and you still don't like them, block them. there won't be hard feelings. you just don't like them. it's that simple; we're mature enough to handle it. 2: no one's d/r is 'wrong'. you can script anything at all into any universe at all. if you believe that someone can imagine a whole reality, build a d/r or w/r from scratch, but you don't believe they can script 'unnatural' stuff, like a loved one being alive or a pet living forever, then you need to reevaluate your opinions. 3: we listen and we don't judge. sometimes, you'll see people 'judging' each other, but that tends to be between friends (i.e. me and @shiftingwithmars about anything with ethan or me and @zipper-is-ranting anytime i mention the person i like in this reality). yes, some of us have hooker or sugar baby d/rs. some of us have severely traumatic d/rs. and it's not your place to tell another shifter what they can or can't do in their d/r. it's their d/r. you don't have to go. 4: learn about loa. please, please dedicate a little time to learning about the law of assumption, it's so so helpful when you're shifting.

having said all that, i really do hope that you can enjoy your time on shiftblr! it's a lovely community, and i really do think you'll enjoy yourselves here.

𝒃𝒆 𝒌𝒊𝒏𝒅, 𝒔𝒕𝒂𝒚 𝒔𝒂𝒇𝒆, 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒉𝒂𝒑𝒑𝒚 𝒔𝒉𝒊𝒇𝒕𝒊𝒏𝒈!

Yes you do

I genuinely need to talk more about shifting on here because I need more shifting friends and I'm lowkey depressed and want to feel better by getting to my Dr so I can be around my 6'4 military boyfriend who I want to use as a weighted blanket