The Week Been So Shitty Goddamn. I Wanna Tear All My Organs Out. Yippee.

The thought of one day being someone's th!nsp0 is the best thing to keep me going

daily reminder<3

I noticed yesterday that creame colored flare jeans were looser on me than last time and I am really happy.

Same with my mom fit kinda jeans and my fave pink sweater. It is exhilarating to notice these things.

U don't have to change everything just the things that matter lol

Kinda back now

૮ฅ・ﻌ・აฅ OCTOBER 15

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➁ Plain black coffee 200ml - 0 cal

➀ Green apple - 78 cal

➀ Boiled egg - 72 cal

Water - 1.5l/2l

Full - 150 cal

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Steps - 10391/10000 - 419 cal

Exercise - No - 0 cal

Burned - 419 cal

૮ฅ・ﻌ・აฅ OCTOBER 3.

Fasting through the day didn't happen because I binged lmao. Not with some really tempting food but with fish and eggs because they are my safe food and I like them a lot LOT, so I just couldn't help myself. I also realized that I quite like carbonara too even though for long I just couldn't even eat it because of the "weird" (at least for me it was) taste. Kinda ashamed, but as long as I stay under 1200 cals in the end (with how much I burnt) I am content.

Today was a long ass day too and I am exhausted. I made a promise to myself that I am fasting through tomorrow and the day after, plus my best friend is coming home this weekend and I need to prepare to hang out and drink with her, so three day fast it is.

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➃ Fish and eggs sandwiches - 576 cal

➀ Hell energy drink (lemon & ginger) - 117 cal

➀ Choccochino (200ml) - 117 cal

➂ Pickwick green tea (250ml) (strawberry & lemongrass) - 0 cal

➀ Small bowl of carbonara (220g) - 437 cal

Water - 1.5l/2l

Full - 1247 cal

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Steps - 7868/10000 - 316cal

Exercise - No - 0 cal

Burned - 316 cal

૮ฅ・ﻌ・აฅ NOVEMBER

I decided that I am kot gonna date things lmao. Kinda feeling mentay frustrated, so I hoped a break would make it better. It, in fact, did not.

I am in one discord server and people are really really nice, but I feel like I abandoned that server and I just dunno. I'd like a community where I can ramble about my silly things and people motivate eachother to push through things. Don't get me wrong, like I said they are really nice, motivating and everything. I just feel like I didn't connect much, but that can be just me.

Anyhow, a gaming-ana server is what I wanna make. For sillies that are like me idk. I might just need more friends lmaoo.

Also I have been fasting for two days now but my period just decided to come, so ugh. Fortunately whenever it happens I don't feel much hunger, so I can just fast and be happy. I am planning on going til saturday because I am meeting up with a friend that day and we already made plans to visit a café. Im sure he will make a suggestion to eat something somewhere too.

So yes yippee. That is for this update. I might restart the logging.

I love my wrists because they are not thick and I can see how much I have already lost but every damn fucking time i look at my ankles I wanna cry because they are so thick.

For what reason??? Ugh...

RE-BLOG IF….

- You FULLY support recovery and WANT people to recover.

- You think people should AVOID “@na coaches” AT ALL COSTS.

-You are against “f@t-sp0” . (becosue it’s just down right wrong.)