૮ฅ・ﻌ・აฅ OCTOBER 5.

rb if you hate your cw so fucking much or if you like cats

I AM SURE

You are sure you will lose weight

You are sure you will lose weight fast.

You are sure you will drop kilos.

You are sure the number will go down.

You are sure you will f@st for longer periods.

You are sure you will stop b!nging.

You are sure you will r3strict more.

You are sure you will prg when you need to.

You are sure your metabolism will speed up.

You are sure hunger will go away.

You are sure you will see a thigh gap soon.

You are sure you have the self-discipline to f@st.

YOU GOT THIS. KEEP GOING. YOUR STRONG ENOUGH.

I need a boyfriend to scream at me when I gain and let me starve and to buy me cute gifts when I lose weight

૮ฅ・ﻌ・აฅ OCTOBER 15

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➁ Plain black coffee 200ml - 0 cal

➀ Green apple - 78 cal

➀ Boiled egg - 72 cal

Water - 1.5l/2l

Full - 150 cal

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Steps - 10391/10000 - 419 cal

Exercise - No - 0 cal

Burned - 419 cal

૮ฅ・ﻌ・აฅ OCTOBER 25

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➁ Plain black coffee 200ml - 0 cal

➁ Green apple 309g - 180 cal

➀ Tortilla with with tuna and corn - 545 cal

Water - 1.6l/2l

Full - 725 cal

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Steps - 8698/10000 - 353 cal

Exercise - No - 0 cal

Burned - 353 cal

How can I trigger the honeymoon phase again😭😭

So new years! Yippee! Things are gonna get better and I will be skinnier.

૮ฅ・ﻌ・აฅ OCTOBER 24 + WEEK SUMMARY

I was so absent gah daym. I binge watched trigun again then watched trigun stampede and grrr the brainrot was so real and strong (curse you knives for being so crazy and yet so appealing for my brain) and quite honestly I just didn't bother to write logs.

The whole week been really chill, mostly spent my time at home mainly because I got kinda ill...for a day lmao. After that I was just kinda tired all day so I stayed in bed, only woke up to do my nails, which took me 4 days btw because Im not a professional and I wanted it to be perfect.

So yes, I only logged my food down in the tracker and wasted away. Makes me kinda sad, kinda guilty but at the same time it is what it is.

AlsonI noticed that now it's not as hot and warm outside so my body doesn't "crave" water so I forget to drink and that's not good. It makes me hungry and bored so I often catch myself wandering in the kitchen, opening and closing the fridge door to see if my stomach wants anything other than meat, veggies and fruits. Not too big on eating carbohydrates and if I can I will avoid it even tho my body supposedly needs it. (I was a hypocrite today tho I craved rice and gave)

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➁ Plain black coffee 200ml - 0 cal

➀ Pickwick green tea (lemon) 350ml - 0 cal

➁ Green apples 287g - 166 cal

➁ Eggs 106g - 152 cal

➁ Bowl of Basmati rice with tuna, corn and broccoli - 700 cal

Water - 1.6l/2l

Full - 1018 cal

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Steps - 10217/10000 - 410 cal

Exercise - No - 0 cal

Burned - 420 cal

me to me:

don’t you dare fucking quit! You’re literally almost there!! You got what 4 more hours left in your fast?? Don’t be a chicken shit and just do it!!! Do stop don’t stop don’t stop!!! You gotta fucking want it!!! You don’t wanna keep going?? Then why the fuck did you start to begin with?! Push like you fucking mean it!! Don’t you dare eat that!! Just a few more hours don’t wuss out!

You coward!!

i cant wait to be able to feel and see my hip bones and collar bones again. i don’t know how i ever convinced myself to recover from ana and then on top of that develop a b.e.d