Still At My Grandma's... And I Fucked Up. Usually When I'm Here, I Either Do Really Well Or Straight

At this point, I'm not even trying to quit cutting properly

I only quit because of the swimming classes at school I have to take, but I don't fucking care anymore, as long as I don't do it a couple of days ahead it's fine

I never wanted to stop for myself and I guess I won't then, just maybe lower, well, the amount a little

Can't decide if I actually wanna weigh myself again or not

Cuz I really don't want to get disappointed

Okay so. I've seen my fair share of transphobia on edblr [for crying out loud you're on THE lgbt app] and I'm just going to say that transgender people have the HIGHEST RATE OF EATING DISORDERS.

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Statistically 71% of transgender individuals currently or have previously at some point in their lives struggled with an eating disorder.

But why do so many trans people develop eating disorders you may ask? The biggest factor is: Discrimination. All around, discrimination leads to the development of severe disorders. The other major reason is gender dysphoria, with GD comes the feeling that you lack control over your body which is generally a huge contributor to eating disorders but most trans people tend to live in unaccepting or downright hateful environments basically leading to lack of control x2.

Trans people will also develop eating disorders to change their bodies in very drastic ways, especially when there is no access to gender affirming care like for trans men, top surgery and for trans women, to give a more sleek feminine look to the body.

I specifically see a lot of cisgender men in ed spaces complaining about the prevalence of trans men in the "male ed" tags but I'm going to pull another stat on you- 42% of cisgender men who struggle with eating disorders are also part of the lgbt community, so if you're part of that 42% and are still being transphobic, you should look into lgbt history in general and thank the group that gave you your rights. If you're a cis straight male complaining about trans people struggling with eating disorders, just remember that plenty of people will never even entertain the thought that you have a "woman disorder".

So if you're out here bitching about "why are there trans men in the checks tags" and plenty more hateful shit that I do not feel comfortable quoting- just think about this, statistically there is just going to be an "overwhelming" amount of trans people in all online ed communities. If you aren't comfortable with that then it's probably time you recover babe <3

parents brought home huge apples today

And they're really fucking red and have I mentioned just how large they are?

Goodness

I ate a banana today and it was huge. Seriously. Largest banana I've ever fucking seen I don't think it was real

What the scale sees before I step on it:

The monster cans have got to be at least a quarter of the experience, heck, a third. Have you ever looked at them closely, because man, these designs are just STUNNING.

(Today I some monster into a glass to check it's color like a normal person just does, and drinking from the can in comparison was just. So much better.)

I just fucking binged and I hate myself

I stopped counting at some point but I must have definitely gone over 2000 calories and honestly, my day is ruined

I got a day off school today and it started off fine, I made plans and all and wouldn't have gone over my limit had I just stuck to them

But I had a weigh in and lost over 2 kg, and at some point I lost motivation to study and started eating and procrastinating...

Does that happen to anyone else?

I feel like such a fat stupid loser

How tf can I avoid binging on the weekends guys?? Pls send tips

My food scale's batteries went empty and I don't think we have the right ones at home so I can't change them right away 😭

What am I supposed to doooo now I just wanna count my cals

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