The Lightning Tree. Salem, MA

I wish I could love you with every piece of me.

I wish I could be the person you'd like me to be.

I wish I could discard everything I hate about myself, create something new.

I wish I could be sweet, and kind, and a little more like you.

In case you wanna know something I'll never know

I'm never sure when my friends and I will live, or die alone

Our whole God damn world is that much of a fucking mess

We can call me paranoid, blame it on anxiety

But we know the problems are sewn into our society

Will the rest of forever be filled with this much fucking stress?

I wanna hide from it all, run away

And I would, if things stopped getting in the way

It's not fair, it's not fair, it's so unfair

Anyway, I didn't turn in my homework last night. Maybe I'll actually do it later but it's late now :/

I take everything showers when I can't sleep at night

I could be in there for hours, and still not feel right

And so I'll cry myself to sleep, or stay up to see the sun

Cause no matter how I scrub the dirt, it's like I've gotten off none

I'm a mess, my life's a mess, why can't I wash it away?

If I never feel clean, then there must be a better way

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH

My audition today went really well, and the director said I was "fantastic" and " you'll be hearing from us soon." So, idk, good things can happen in this messy year and I hope everyone else has something good happen to them soon too. Gotta spread them good vibes, wouldn't be fair to keep them all to myself.

Why sleep when I can stay up late and convince myself I have more time than I actually do?

Color Exposure Therapy

“So often, a visit to a bookshop has cheered me, and reminded me that there are good things in the world.”

― Vincent van Gogh

Most Haunted Restaurant in Salem MA

Turner's Seafood was built on top of Lyceum Hall, which was built on top of Bridget Bishop's property. Bishop was killed after being accused of witch craft during the trials, and it's said that she haunts the building.

I felt very drawn to this space during my trip. It had a strong, sorrowful energy.