This is what knowing your burning out before you've fully burnt out feels like
Katherine May, from Wintering: How I learned to Flourish when Life became FrozenΒ
1910s Moon and Star Pillows
Credit: linnhe on Pinterest
I avoid sleep cause I like to pretend I can avoid tomorrow
Nothing's going to happen, but I've convinced myself the world's ending
So I'm building up a list of my worry and sorrow
It keeps my mind off of the night and morning skies blending
Maybe I just drink too much caffeine
I tell myself that, anyway
Cause I tend to ramble on like an anxious machine
And the more I do that, the longer I can keep sleep away
I tried to focus for a few minutes, but then my cat started ripping up the fabric bins I use as a chest of drawers and took a massive shit. I guess she doesn't want me to do that analysis either
Is control simply a delusion; reality, an illusion?
Was there a time where things made sense
I want to stay in touch, be aware. But the world is so unfair
Current events contorts my stomach into anxious knots of torturous suspense
Early 1960's Monster popcorn Bucket featuring Bela Lugosi as Dracula
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I think I've started coping for my coping
I thought I was better, but now I'm moping
Maybe it was all just hopeless hoping
I'm literally so tired right now. Why am I more tired when I get those 8 hours than when I pull an all nighter????
~~Theatre major with a caffeine addiction and constant anxiety~~ [20] [They/Them]
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