Need You Guys To Know I Am Soooo Anti Generative AI. In Case That Wasn't Clear. It's Bad For The Environment,

GOD, I love being up at 12:30 in the morning and writing (roleplaying) THE most gut-wrenching, heart-aching angst known to man with my OCs /gen

It's for my DSMP AU, but still!

TW/CW: Themes of abuse/manipulation

Character A was told that love = getting hurt by someone when they were younger. Character B confesses to them, Character A has a panic attack and leaves without an explanation. Character B talks about it to Character C and tells Character C that he's been avoiding Character A for a week to not make them uncomfortable, so Character C offers to go with him to talk to Character A.

She gets Character A to meet up with her and she tells them that a friend wants to talk to them. Character B appears and he apologizes for making Character A upset, stating that he will accept a rejection if Character A doesn't feel the same way about him. Character A then apologizes and explains why they freaked out because they were told that if someone loved them, they would get hurt. They ran away because they didn't want to get hurt again.

MMMMM, THE ANGST IS SO GOOD!!! (I'm normal about traumatizing my characters, I swear). Also yes, I colour-coded it so you'd understand who is who lol. No, I will not be telling you who is who, you have to figure that out yourself in the future :D.

I have an entire scene for my Undertale AU rotting away in my drafts because I haven't touched that part of the story yet. The scene is for the second part and I haven't finished the first one yet. It's so upsetting that I have no motivation to write part 1 because I really like part 1! You get to meet Day (the fallen child) and you get to explore the world through their eyes, and I love Day! They're my precious child!

I guess maybe it's because I get to write one of my favorite lesbian couples being angsty a lot (which is essentially what the completed scene is), but I love part 1 because it's got so much fluff and wholesome scenes in it! Like when Day meets Napstablook, I have a really cute idea of how the scene plays out! I dunno man, it's kinda frustrating lol. And one of my favorite scenes of Day meeting Fennu, Error, and Sin! It's so cute and sweet and I've been planning it out for weeks now! But I've had no motivation to continue and to get Day out of the Ruins (because that's where they are right now). Giwbcjebxigjwifj, I hate this!! Writer's block is a pain in the ass, holy shit

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who the hell was going to tell me genloss was selling a physical CD AND WHY DID I HAVE TO FIND OUT ITS 40 DOLLARS AUGHHH

I'm going to be on an emotional rollercoaster this weekend :3

(Btw, this is just me memeing about my emotions, this is a light-hearted joke to make fun of how emotional I am! I will be fine, dw!)

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Bro, Generation Loss is going to be 2 years old in, like, a little over a month from now, that's crazy to me. You have no idea how much that show inspired me creatively. It's part of the reason I love overanalyzing stuff I enjoy, like Wonderlust or the ASMP. Hell, I have a whole NOTEBOOK dedicated to my theories and observations for GenLoss.

This show came to me during a time I really needed it. I was still dealing with the loss of my grandmother and I was stressed out from school. And then episode 1 came out, then 2, and then 3. I couldn't be there for the live streams of episode 1 and 2 because of tech issues (ep 1) and choir stuff (ep 2), but I was there for episode 3 and it was beautiful.

GenLoss is genuinely still one of my biggest hyperfixations. I got one of the posters from the store for my birthday last year, I started making edits for it, and it even inspired me to start my own horror project! So, overall, yes, I'm gushing about how much I love Generation Loss as a whole because the story is incredible and it's inspired me so much and I genuinely think you should check it out too.

Thank you Ranboo for making something so incredible that my brothers are sick of hearing me talk about it and thank you to the Generation Loss community for being the best fandom I've ever been a part of. Oh, and thank you to the fan-made GenLoss theorizing Discord server for being there and helping me understand the lore of the video game (which I have yet to touch lol).

Alrighty, that's enough gushing, Imma go pass out now. Good night :3

So, my older brother is spending his spring break at home with me and my family, which means he's staying in my room with me because we always grew up sharing a room. Now, I've gotten used to the bedroom just being mine because he has an apartment, which means he lives there until the lease ends.

So, since he is visiting, I get SO scared that I'm being too loud at night because I'm so used to it just being me. Like, even before I was careful because my parents' room is literally a wall away from mine and I don't want my dad to wake up grumpy and start yelling at me, but it's SO MUCH WORSE because he's literally in the same room as me!

I have a bunk bed and he's LITERALLY RIGHT BELOW ME WHILE I'M WATCHING STUPID VIDEOS WAITING TO BE TIRED!! And even then, I have to quietly bring my computer down from my bed (the top bunk) so I can play music while I sleep and and every time I make a noise that feels just the tiniest bit too loud, I freak the fuck out-

I'm not mad that my brother is visiting, I love seeing him, I'm just so scared I'll wake him up and he'll yell at me for being too loud TwT

A "Perfect" Reflection

Fennu was never a fan of mirrors, but that disdain for mirrors heightened after Charlie's death. Because every time she looked into a mirror, all she saw was her deceased twin sister staring back at her.

I genuinely enjoyed making this, I have had Dragontale on my mind a lot recently. I was thinking a lot about what Fennu's opinion on mirrors would be, especially since she and Charlie are identical twins (for the most part), and I felt that it would make sense that she doesn't like mirrors because all she would see in the reflection is Charlie. I love traumatizing my OCs :3

Time Taken: 1 hour and 23 minutes

Characters Used (from left to right): Charlie Anderson (they/she) and Fennu Anderson (she/rose)

Apps Used: Gacha Nebula and Ibis Paint X

Hope you like it!!

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Messaging people for the first time is so hard. What am I supposed to say? Like, "You seem really odd and your blog intrigues me. Do you want to have philosophical conversations or perhaps talk about fictional characters?" What! Whatever. I will just follow you back and stare at your blog with my big beautiful brown eyes.

HI! Ignore the fact it's almost 2:00 in the morning when I'm posting this, but I wanted to say that I'm back from my break! I have a video premiering on November 19th at 3:30 PM EST (Eastern Standard Time)! Which is about 12 hours from now lol, BUT YOU CAN NEVER BE TOO PREPARED!! Thank you for allowing me to take some time off to focus on my mental health! I will be posting new random bullshit soon, so keep your eyes peeled! I love y'all /p!

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Going to the Ren Faire this weekend, hopefully, I'll get some cool stuff for my A!Aimsey cosplay (specifically a crown and a sword).

If not, I will be sad /hj

:3

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(P.S. If you wanna see my A!Aimsey cosplay, I post my cosplays on TikTok, which is linked in my linktree. I also cosplay OCs and Squiggles and all of my cosplays are closet cosplays, so they're not very good, but I still have fun with it)