Messaging People For The First Time Is So Hard. What Am I Supposed To Say? Like, "You Seem Really Odd

GOD, I love being up at 12:30 in the morning and writing (roleplaying) THE most gut-wrenching, heart-aching angst known to man with my OCs /gen

It's for my DSMP AU, but still!

TW/CW: Themes of abuse/manipulation

Character A was told that love = getting hurt by someone when they were younger. Character B confesses to them, Character A has a panic attack and leaves without an explanation. Character B talks about it to Character C and tells Character C that he's been avoiding Character A for a week to not make them uncomfortable, so Character C offers to go with him to talk to Character A.

She gets Character A to meet up with her and she tells them that a friend wants to talk to them. Character B appears and he apologizes for making Character A upset, stating that he will accept a rejection if Character A doesn't feel the same way about him. Character A then apologizes and explains why they freaked out because they were told that if someone loved them, they would get hurt. They ran away because they didn't want to get hurt again.

MMMMM, THE ANGST IS SO GOOD!!! (I'm normal about traumatizing my characters, I swear). Also yes, I colour-coded it so you'd understand who is who lol. No, I will not be telling you who is who, you have to figure that out yourself in the future :D.

Going to the Ren Faire this weekend, hopefully, I'll get some cool stuff for my A!Aimsey cosplay (specifically a crown and a sword).

If not, I will be sad /hj

:3

~ 💜🖤

(P.S. If you wanna see my A!Aimsey cosplay, I post my cosplays on TikTok, which is linked in my linktree. I also cosplay OCs and Squiggles and all of my cosplays are closet cosplays, so they're not very good, but I still have fun with it)

hate J K Rowling button. love asexuals button.

I've only known WD for a few episodes, but if anything were to happen to her, I'd kill Bizly and then myself /silly

Seriously, I'm so emotionally attached to WD, I love her so much I will die for her. Rewatching episode 16 because she and Ripley are so fucking cute and if Bizly doesn't make them kiss, he's homophobic-

End of the Hall // Generation Loss: The Social Experiments.

HI! Ignore the fact it's almost 2:00 in the morning when I'm posting this, but I wanted to say that I'm back from my break! I have a video premiering on November 19th at 3:30 PM EST (Eastern Standard Time)! Which is about 12 hours from now lol, BUT YOU CAN NEVER BE TOO PREPARED!! Thank you for allowing me to take some time off to focus on my mental health! I will be posting new random bullshit soon, so keep your eyes peeled! I love y'all /p!

~ 💜🖤

Analysis of Octavia's Confrontation at Stolas in Season 2 Episode 12: Sinsmas From Someone Who Also Struggles With Depression (Spoilers for Helluva Boss under the cut)

I've been thinking about Helluva Boss's season 2 finale, Sinsmas episode, specifically the scene where Octavia is confronting Stolas and I wanted to give my 2 cents about that scene as someone who also takes medication for depression and has been doing so for a few years ago (featuring some info I remember from Intro to Psych).

Via stated that she was confused about why Stolas needed to have anti-depressants (or happy pills or whatever it's called in the Hellaverse), believing that she was doing something wrong and that's why he was taking them. Now, depression is when your brain struggles to make happy chemicals, specifically serotonin, so people who are diagnosed with depression are often given prescribed medication aka anti-depressants.

You can see on the label of the pill bottles that Via finds in that episode that it's prescribed to Stolas, so it's likely he was diagnosed with depression and he takes anti-depressants to help his brain produce serotonin. And obviously, after Mastermind, he missed several days of dosages, which explains his mental breakdown later in Sinsmas. As someone who has accidentally missed a few days' worth of dosages, mental breakdowns are likely going to happen more frequently because your brain lacks serotonin.

Via being confused about Stolas needing anti-depressants is understandable, especially since he probably wasn't sure how to explain his depression to his 17-year-old daughter, which is partially the reason Via's confronting him because he wasn't being upfront about his mental health. But the hiding of his depression could be because he didn't feel safe enough to talk about it, especially because of Stella. Another reason could be that he didn't want to stress Via out with that information. After all, she would probably try harder to be a better daughter, even though it's not her fault. She's young, she's bound to think that kind of stuff when it comes to one of her parents' mental health.

Now, this isn't a hate post for the episode, I really enjoyed that episode and I'm hyped for Season 3. Like I said, this is just me giving my 2 cents about that scene as someone who is also medicated for depression. I love Stolas and Octavia so much and I can see where both sides are coming from in the confrontation. Both have flawed logistics for doing the things they're doing, which is natural in an argument. So yeah!

Lemme know if you guys have any other thoughts on that scene and if I should talk about anything else related to Helluva Boss as someone who struggles with mental health issues. And don't worry, I am doing fine mentally, so don't ask me how I'm doing, please. Thank you for reading my analysis, which I wrote at 2:30 in the morning lmao. Alright, good night.

Wait a second…

I’m onto you Jaiden 🕵️

Bizly PC are either emo losers or wet pathetic losers

Slimesicle PC are either himbos, twinks or creatures but they will all somehow have religious trauma

Condi PC are either really cool woman or man having like the worst 72 hours of his life

Grizzly PC conventionally attractive magic people or fursonas

"Why can't you get it through your thick skull? I don't love you. I don't even know what love is."

I WAS ROLEPLAYING A SCENARIO AND I SPAT THAT OUT I FUCKING LOVE THAT LINE SO MUCH, HOLY SHIT. IT'S SO BADASS, LIKE WHAT?!

The character is talking to their mother, who abandoned them, btw. That's all you're getting. God, I love writing an AroAce character who doesn't even know what true love, romantic, platonic, familial, or any of it is. It's perfect for angst :D