I Look At This One Uh From Time To Time -

Friendship breakups hit me so hard, every time I open my phone to check a message, I'm anxious it's someone's paragraph about how disgusting I am and how they never want to see me again.

"match my freak!" match my sweetness. match my benevolence. match my empathy. match my ability to feel emotions so deeply it tears me apart from the inside out

quit brainrot. unfollow trolls. read essays. go down rabbit holes. have a calendar. maintain a todo list. read old books. watch old movies. turn on dnd. walk with intent. eat without youtube. chew more. train without music. plan for 15 mins. execute. organise your desk. take something seriously. read ancient scripts. act fast. find bread. eat clean. journal. save a life. learn to code. read poetry. create art. stay composed. refine your speech. optimise for efficiency. act sincere. help people. be kind. stop doing things that waste your time. follow your intuition. craft reputation. learn persuasion. systemise your day (or don't). write. write. write. write more. iterate violently. leave your phone at home. walk to the grocery store. talk to strangers. feed the dogs. visit bookstores. look for 1800s novels. experience art. then love. sit with a monk and offer them lunch. don't talk shit about people. embody virtue. sit alone. do something with your life. what do you want to create? turn off your mind. play. play a sport. combat sports. notice fonts in trees. fall in love. notice patterns on a table. visualise it. talk to people with respect. don't hate. be loving. be real. become yourself. cherrypick your qualities. discard the useless. rejections aren't permanent. invite what aligns. accept what does not. read great people. be different. choose different. do great work. let it consume you. lose your mind. value your time. experience life.

Introduction

Hi, call me Ladybug. I'm 16 and created this blog to better document my "revenge transformation" into a more attractive, intelligent, peaceful and healthier me.

My main focuses are losing weight, fixing minor skin issues, getting extremely high grades, fixing my mental health, making more friends and becoming more fashionable. Which seems like a load of work all written together like this, but by documenting my progress, I really think I'll be able to make changes.

Something important to note is that a lot of my mental health issues stem from the fact that I am autistic and suffer from an anxiety disorder, so my self-esteem is the pits and has been for a while.

Support me as I better myself and become the woman I've always wanted to be. Beautiful, intelligent, peaceful and healthy.

~ fetish and ED blogs will be blocked ~

period.

"I'm so lazy, I need to push myself harder" I say, as if I'm not already exhausted 24/7.

as it always does 🍎

these things matter !!!

Week 1

Summary - This week has been quite stressful for me, but I managed to get some good work done and mostly eat within my limit, so it isn't all bad.

Monday

Cals consumed: 1,007

Cals burnt: 1,751

Water drank: 6 cups

Assignments done: 3

Pages read: 40

Mood: Kinda sad

Extras: Had a bit of a rough day today, and I'm dreading tomorrow :( but it's likely just stress from PMSing.

Tuesday:

Cals consumed: 1,777

Cals burnt: 1,814

Water drank: 5 cups

Assignments done: 3

Pages read: 50

Mood: So-so

Extras: I was feeling pretty decent earlier, but I crashed around late afternoon. As you can tell because I binged on an entire packet of knock-off oreos :(

Wednesday:

Cals consumed: 1,529

Cals burnt: 1,679

Water drank: 6 cups

Assignments done: 1

Pages read: 30

Mood: Tired

Extras: Today started off pretty decent even though school exhausted me. I'm just hoping tomorrow will be better...

Thursday:

Cals consumed: 1,338

Cals burnt: 1,827

Water drank: 8 cups

Assignments done: 3

Pages read: 10

Mood: Overwhelmed

Extras: Everything's exhausted me today, I only hope I'll feel better at the weekend because I know I'm going out.

Friday:

Cals consumed: 1,132

Cals burnt: 2,016

Water drank: 8 cups

Assignments done: 2

Pages read: 50 (finished my book!)

Mood: Exhausted, but content

Extras: Had a bit of a rough morning, but I'm feeling better now. Looking forward to the weekend because I have plans.

Saturday:

Cals consumed: 1,161

Cals burnt: 1,995

Water drank: 3 cups

Assignments done: 1

Pages read: 0

Mood: Happy

Extras: Did a little shopping today, but mostly messed around.

Sunday:

Cals consumed: 1,296

Cals burnt: 1,650

Water drank: 3 cups

Assignments done: 1

Pages read: 0

Mood: Calm, but a little anxious

Extras: Just hung out today and didn't get much done. I've been thinking about school on Monday, which has been making me nervous.

my aura when i walk into any room .. ❤︎🎀 #ྀིྀིྀིྀིྀིmine #babiejenni ❤︎