Im About To Smash Through The Glass, Its Going To Be Painful And Devestating. I’ll Mumble My Appologies

?????

How can I feel guilty and horrible like I'm cheating on someone not even interested me

 That I'm not even with?

Damn me for loving him too hard and too much...

I just get so lonely and scared without him...

shout out to anyone having a flareup right now. i’m sorry you’re hurting. you’re stronger than you feel right now. go easy on yourself today. you deserve it.

Sometimes I don’t feel like living

When you’re daydreaming a scenario and then suddenly come up with something that would work way better

7/3/19

9:20am

I feel like fuck. My head hurts. My stomach is killing me. Stress ulcers maybe?

My heart has also been acting up again, every anxiety pang gets my heart to skip and palpitate. Which unfortunately is way more often than not. 

Wondering if my iron is low, got that stupid blood disorder that ruins everything if my eating is ‘off’.

I’m also shaking a bit, my hands are just shaking lightly.

Just going to smoke some, calm my nerves, and try and rest.

It’ll pass. Time passing is inevitable, this won’t last forever. I just gotta tough it out.

Fucking tired.

Can I get a motherfucking uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh bullet to the head?