Can I Get A Motherfucking Uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh Bullet To The Head?

I hate when he holds me or shows me any affection. It feels dirty, wrong, unwanted. Most of the time I ignore it, but when It happens I feel like I’m cheating on you. I suppose that's a funny thought...We’re not even together, but... I still feel like I belong to you. I feel stuck between two worlds. I can’t help these feelings. I am so afraid of it welling up in me and threatening to spill. I’ve never felt a love like this before. I think I’ll love you forever, no matter what happens. You make me so happy. I wish I could tell you just how much you really mean to me... It’s been a while and I wish I knew how you feel about me at this point in time....but I am honestly too scared to attempt to ask at this point. I’m scared it might just be the same answer as before. If it is I would rather not know, and just stay happy in my daydreams. 

6/29/19

2am

3lbs down in a week

300c for dinner

Half a bowl smoked,

played saints row for hours to numb my mind

So tired, but slept over 12 hours

So tired. Gonna attempt a 24 hour fast today

I feel alone no matter what I do

Me:-eats something-

Stomach:“GET IT OUT OF ME!”

Me:“You’ve had this before and you were fine!”

Stomach:“bitch what did I just say!? IM REJECTING IT!”

I lost 6lbs in 3 days!!

💐 weight loss spell like to charge, rb to activate 💐

Letters to my parents, pt. 7

Necesito soledad … 

why are you staring? please stop it.

if it makes you unable to get out of bed: you’re not faking it

if it makes you unable to think straight: you’re not faking it

if it makes you unable to brush your hair in the morning: you’re not faking it

even if you’re still able to work and smile during the day but unable to sleep or move later that day because of it: you’re not faking it

if it effects you in any way: you are not faking it

THIS IS REAL, don’t second guess yourself because others do

If you see this

im sorry