Something That Sort Of Breaks Me In “The Circus” Are The Realizations Of Why Stolas Unintentionally

Something that sort of breaks me in “The Circus” are the realizations of why Stolas unintentionally hurts the people that he loves. Plenty of fans already thought that the cheating happened because he was unhappy with Stella (and the episode more than confirms it), and there’s also more.

 Him taking Octavia to an amusement park she hadn’t enjoyed in years instead of talking about why she was sad? His father took him to a circus and “bought” a friend to him because he didn’t want to deal with his crying. His perverted behaviour? Paimon didn’t manage to remember his name because he had fucked many people and therefore had many children. 

The reasons as to why he crossed Blitz’s boundaries and made him feel like a sex toy was because he was out of himself with joy at being with his first ever friend, plus the fact that he had probably never witnessed a healthy romantic relationship before, much less been in one. He wanted to love Blitz, but he didn’t know how, and he only realized it when Blitz had enough.

The whole episode shows that Stolas only ever wanted love and company throughout his whole life, but he was deprived of it as a child due to the expectations and duties of a Goetia, and as an adult he screws his own chances because of what he was forced to learn.