random ramble idfk
self destruction is an illusion of self control i think. like sure you’re in charge of how bad you get and how you worsen yourself but in the long run it won’t be your decision to make ykwim. it gets out of your hands and the destruction controls you. so instead of self destructing for some semblance of consistency or control over your life you can indulge in self betterment. like do things that make you happy, you can be in control of that too and it’ll be better for you in the long run :P
having my goofy ahh dad make me grilled cheese bc this guy just kinda does what i say
duuuuude i am so cunty and awesome and my eyes see wonder in the world that most cannot and my outfits are fire and people love my aura and i make people laugh and i am a vessel made of love and laughter
dressing like a little boy again after being all fancy yesterday feels like those videos where they release wild animals back into nature
girlblogging but in a gross perverted girl adjacent somehow sexy covered in blood yesterday’s eyeliner smoking a cig i found on the ground sort of way and not in the i want a man to hit me way. ykwim
going to war (dying my hair again), my sword is dull (same black box dye as every other time) and my soldiers are losing (lack of motivation to dye it again)
i am in immense pain but i won’t take any meds for it bc did joan of arc have meds for her period cramps. no and she led an entire army to victory so i can thug it out
forcing myself not to be a jealous wench when it’s literally the only emotion i’m creating is like in spiderman no way home when norman is trying to resist the green goblin telling him to be evil
they should invent a body glitter that doesn’t rub off within ten minutes of putting it on i think… i wanted to be sparkly but NOPE dreams ruined whaaaaatever