I Kept Spiraling With A Lot Of Emotions The Entire Day, My Anxiety And Fears Never Stopped Giving Me
I kept spiraling with a lot of emotions the entire day, my anxiety and fears never stopped giving me a hard time. I thought of all things that could go wrong, all the ways that I'm incapable of love and maybe keeping it alive, all the ways I really truly desire people to be close to me yet I fear them being replaceable or me being replaced. Everything felt like a big puzzle, big chunk of questions kept coming to me, tarot readings made my days even worse, and despite it all. I just wanna sleep in my blanket and dream and feel safe and say this to myself that,
"Darling, if its the right person. The love will always stay. Love is always the answer. It will stay. Love will always stay. You'll know when you know."
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Sylvia Plath, from The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath
Its so offensive to see other live the life you've prayed for. That feeling is so raw, like I see that there might be some god up there and he definitely has some favorites.
Jenny Hval, from Girls Against God
[slow dancing, silk textures, hands on her waist, fireworks, velvet touch, euphoric music, black dresses, red roses, moonlit serenade slow songs, lana del rey, letters, lips, forehead to forehead, eye contact, gentleness, candlelit ambiance, whispered secrets, starlit night, soft whispers, vintage charm, lingering perfume, shared laughter, hidden glances, stolen moments, timeless romance.]
I'm his dream person
I'm his dream person
I'm his dream person
I'm his dream person
You’re someone’s dream person btw.
what if, all my life I just end up seeing everyone else fall in love? and wait for mine but it's never been close?
“How long will it feel like burning, said the child trying to be kind.”
— Anne Carson, from Decreation; Lines.
Dear September,
I hope you will be kind, would you please leave the bad behind. Each month I ask the same, to others of a different name. But I have a feeling that you, september, will grant my request, just let this month be one of peace, one of the best, I'll figure out the rest.
Kind Regards, someone living life with hope and a tired heart.
Kurt Vonnegut, from Mother Night; "Chapter Six Hundred & Fourty Three,"
