I Swear So Much Has Happened These Last 3 Days That Nothing Feels Real, And It's Not Even Bad Stuff,

I need to stop going deep on my arm, its gonna bite me back in summer

“I hate

When you say that you're in love

My chest, it burns

When you then say you've had enough

Like make your mind up before I fuck my life up

Baby, I'm so stressed out”

came back just to leave again

it's a never ending cycle

and I really couldn't care.

feeling like blocking everyone but that just feels like too much of a hassle and questions to answer so I'm just going to go off the grid again without telling anyone

wonder why I don't have the energy or motivation to finish my school work. tired of teachers getting upset.

my teachers wouldn't understand or go easy even if I told them anything.

sorry I can't get the will to finish and turn things in. sorry I'm falling behind. sorry my grades just get worse each year. sorry I don't give a shit about anything.

we are all born to die right? so is it wrong of me to speed up the process?

Fucking hate when others look at me.

Do not perceive me. I wasn’t made to be noticed. Im nothing to look at.

when you are very bad for years, people no longer worry.

you become invisible, a ghost.

I can leave now, everyone has forgotten me.

I'm taking this as a ghosting/breakup. 4 years to nothing I guess.

when in depressive pissed off state

just listen to black metal