If I Don't Refresh Myself About Something Or Why I Have It Often Enough I Believe I Don't Have It And

is it safe to take like.. 8 year old dietary pills you found in a drawer? they've never been opened before and im considering it..

also, they're huge. wtf.

feeling like blocking everyone but that just feels like too much of a hassle and questions to answer so I'm just going to go off the grid again without telling anyone

my range of emotions go from “it’s scary how much i feel” to “it’s scary how much i don’t feel”

i have always been fat. even as a kid. I've never known to see myself skinny or bones at all. i literally cannot imagine how I'd look skinny. and I fucking hate it. the issues should have been worse when I was younger, maybe that would've fucked my brain more and I could have done something right with my life.

nvm I'm feeling like shit right now.

i’m such a “i want your attention” but “won’t bother you” kinda person

being pissed while suicidal is leading up to a great idea later tonight

honestly just getting more and more afraid to ever get into another/new relationship because of this. I'm afraid, I'll be constantly afraid that they'll just suddenly leave one day too. I'll get overly too attached and clingy. on top of my already constantly splitting on people. I'm just fucking afraid now because of him.

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being online but not responding to anyone