I Have Always Been Fat. Even As A Kid. I've Never Known To See Myself Skinny Or Bones At All. I Literally

I'm taking this as a ghosting/breakup. 4 years to nothing I guess.

that sounds so bad. im sorry I just want a place to bee without having a feeling of constantly being watched and perceived. I'm sorry I just want a place to ramble and vent and whatever. oh god I feel bad I'm bad I'm bad I'm a liar i feel like a liar

if I actually cry this year it might be because of this pain. cause holy fuck. i am in pain.

is it safe to take like.. 8 year old dietary pills you found in a drawer? they've never been opened before and im considering it..

also, they're huge. wtf.

he's more worried about his friend after they said "I gtg" and like. okay.

i like to think i make it obvious how im generally doing.

guess I really don't mean shit. :)

is it bad I want someone to do bad things with. to cut with. get high or drunk with. go around at night with. do teenage things with. but no, cant and couldn't have that.

i genuinely feel like I'm dying. my chest and heart fucking hurt now. WHAT DO YOU MEAN? what do I mean to you? what does Z mean to you? nothing?

no messages or contact for 3 months straight and still none, and I finally decided to look at your Spotify again. so you are alive. what? just avoiding us? because I see a new playlist, A WEEK AGO?

i don't know how to feel. i don't fucking understand anything. and I can't cut to get some form of sanity cause moms in the bathroom. I have no appetite for the food in front of me. i want to fucking blow up.

i just want some fucking answers.

discovering my bf followed my Spotify. uh, well, okay. gotta set my settings so it doesn't show him when and that I'm listening to music.

I need to stop going deep on my arm, its gonna bite me back in summer

do they not get body language? no, I guess fucking not. stop touching me.