I Dont Know How To Ask For Help Without Feeling Like A Burden

it's whatever. doesn't fucking matter.

brotha, shut up shut up quit telling your boyfriend you basically have a secret account

i don't wanna speak, I don't wanna do any form of communication, I don't wanna type or write, I don't wanna talk. i don't wanna move. i don't wanna do anything.

again.

again.

again.

i just want to not exist, just wanna lay and rot, just wanna die.

yeah so, I got got. I knew it would happen eventually but still feels like being hit by a semi

gonna try to tag everyone I can remember

@love-stuck @sewerslidalfaggot @grimnmm @pinkbunnieskill @the-real-loser-otaku-girl @emandcries @gruesomeghost-boy @ima-end-itt @soontobe-onlyamemory @aloneshecries @thebpdcrybaby (i cant remember some properly, I'm sorry)

why do I barely bleed. I hit deep styros again (wouldn't say baby beans even though I think I saw a few)

and it's barely bleeding or dripping. why does this happens with all my cuts.

i have posted too much today, I'm going to rot away until the 25th or unless something happens

best 30-40 ish minutes of this week

i just spent exploring the third floor of my old 4-5k building with my friend cause she needed props for a film class and I wanted to be useful

it genuinely looks like a abandoned school/warehouse on that floor and I love it

photos undercut because why not

(after they shut the floor down, it was used as a haunted house for a short time, now it's just storage)

came back just to leave again

it's a never ending cycle

and I really couldn't care.

today's wonderful. my chest fucking hurts like I cant breath but I'm breathing fine. I'm so fucking pissed at everything. i wanna throw hands at a teacher, I swear she's trying to fail me now, I wanna skip this stupid concert, I wanna yell at the director and how she's doing a shit job at teaching, I don't understand this math assignment and I have an A in math so I should understand but I don't, I don't want to stay till the bus I want to go home, its been three months since I've heard from A, I wanna fucking mess up my body and cut everywhere, music is not blocking out anything. FUCK THIS SHIT.