Reblog So I Don't Forget. ~🫶🏻

24hr f4st for the first time in months and my cravings are going crazy yall (pray for me)

I think I'm going to 🌟ve myself until the next time i see my husband. I want him to audibly gasp when he sees how small I've gotten. Posting so my fat4ss will hold myself accountable. 124 lbs currently. Let's see how mentally ill I really am. 🤪👍

I've lost 5Ibs in 10 days. All my friends are happy/concerned about how quickly I lost it but I feel like I should've dropped more. Does anyone else feel the same?

Pre/Post B1nge B0dy Check

First Pic: Day before 3 day 19k c4l b1ng3 (ga1n3d 12 lbs, mostly water.)

Last Pic: Today, 12 hours after b1ng3.

Fuck my life. Posting for accountability and to remind my fellow 4n4s that first 'snack/treat' is NEVER worth it. Love yall. 😭🫶

controversial opinion: regular people should not force people with €ds to eat.

regular person = not a doctor

“that’s just your disordered brain talking” hear me out. what does it help? genuinely, what does forcing someone who has an extreme fear of food to eat help with? I’m primarily talking about 4n0rexia in this context but this applies to every €D.

“it’ll keep them alive a little while longer” no, it won’t. one meal will not reverse the long history of damage done to their body. best case scenario: they will never want to be around you again, they’ll go back to isolating themselves which will be detrimental to their mental health because the idea that ‘people = want me to get fat not better’ has been re-affirmed by you and they will not ask for help in the future. worst case scenario: they do the above AND you have guaranteed the fact that the minute they are back home they will try to get rid of it through exercise, l*xatives, p*rging, or long fasts which they likely would not have felt the need to compensate with if they hadn’t been forced to eat.

I know that for myself, and for other people with multiple types of €ds, that being around people when food isn’t involved or at least not the primary focus, while yes it does aid in our disorder because we aren’t eating, it also gives us the ability to engage in positive activities outside of our disorder. If someone is able to take steps to heal their mental health and create friend groups who don’t judge them but supports them, they’re more likely to recover, or at least form some better habits. Our disorders are exhausting. We need times that our disorder isn’t ruling over too.

“part of getting better is doing things that’s hard, that includes eating.” yes, this is true, but you are not a doctor. If a person is in a state where force feeding is required to keep them alive they need more than one meal forced down them. they need mental health support, support in general, and a doctor to oversee all of it. this strongly applies to ARFID and ORTHO as well but forcing sometime to eat their fear foods/foods they struggle with is NOT helpful.

Forced recovery, even in an institutional setting, with our without mental health support in addition to re-feeding, has been shown to be significantly ineffective compared to willing admittance.

This is not a fucking factory where you can pump a person full of food for a few weeks until they weight x-amount, give them no more help than a doctor who can’t be bothered to see their patients more than once a week in their own hospital and even then the time spent with someone and the questions asked are unhelpful for everyone, then drop them back off at home and expect them not to relapse even harder.

Some people do need outside help. Not everyone can/wants to/has the ability to recover by themselves, some will need a push from outside and in the moment it may feel like a loss of autonomy but it’s what they need. The grey line between thinking just eating and doing breathing exercises will fix them vs. structured support and patience in all aspects of a person’s life isn’t that grey.

All this being said, some people will not recover. No matter what you do, no matter how much you care, no matter how much help you give, not everyone gets better. Ultimately, recovery comes from within and it is only up to the individual if they want to recover. If someone has shown they have no intention of recovery and an understanding of the consequences, it should not be forced upon them. Bodily autonomy applies to more than just reproductive health.

I don't even want to have my weight in my bio..like it's actually embarrassing to be this heavy.

Most triggering 4N4 songs?

Trying to find more songs to add to my Spotify playlist

Tips to distract yourself while fasting

🎀 Selfcare (body)

• Shower

• Body lotion

• Trimming your nails

• Doing a face mask

• Hair care

• Vitamins

• Plucking your eyebrows

• Painting your nails

• Shaving

• Exfoliate your body

• Do your lashes with clusters (they’re on amazon)

• Doing your skincare

🦢 Routine

• Make your bed

• Brush your teeth

• Floss!!

• Drink a lot of water

• Stretching

🎀 To do (important)

• Clean the home

• Do your dishes

• Do the laundry

• Read your emails

• Clean your phones (photos, etc…)

• Take out the trashes

• Wash your bed sheets

🦢 Activities

• Color/draw

• Shopping online

• Journaling

• Take a walk (bonus if u have a dog hehe)

• Organize ALL your house

• Make new playlist about your aesthetic

• Make new Pinterest board

• Organize your Pinterest

• Watch a movie

• Watch a new series

• Try new makeup styles

• Pilates workout

• Yoga workout

• Take a good nap

• Play your favourite video game

• Call your friends and go out with them!!

• Listen to a podcast

channels for mental , physical , and spiritual improvement ♡

히니HEENY - makeup tuts , clothing hauls , vlogs

짜잔씨 misstada - vlogs , makeup tuts

A Coreana Beauty 소연뷰티 - glow up tips , skincare , routines

Alex Bondoc - productive vlogs , self care

bossgirlified - skincare , self improvment , glow up tips

electrasoul - spirituality , self love

Free Tea - law of assumption , manifesting , self concept

Garima Verma - productive vlogs , self care

Hinafit - workouts , pilates , dieting tips

Hitomi Mochizuki - self worth , spirituality , life tips

hyler - manifestation , self concept

Iyzah♡ - self love , self care

jaila abriana - vlogs , self improvment

Janika Bates - hygeine help , routines , vlogs

justina mendez - sexual help

lay luv  - makeup , vlogs

mei monte - wonyoungism , glow up tips

mira daisy - pink pilates princess , vlogs

Olivia Yang - pink pilates princess , self care

Persephonesmind - self love , confidence , life tips

SHOW NEMOTO - self concept , self improvment

Teaira Walker - vlogs , beauty , skincare

Thewizardliz (obv) - self improvment , self love , confidence

Vickita Trivedi - life tips , feminity

WokeupCupid - spirituallity , self concept

WIEIAD (Under 900)

Breakfast:

Fiber one - 90

Almond milk - 35

Blueberries - 70

Cinnamon- 0

Lunch:

Sushi - 120

Rice - 170

Kimchi - 35

Soy sauce - 5

Egg whites - 61

Dinner:

Miso soup - 35

Seaweed - 20

Ramune - 70

Snacks/Misc:

Watermelon - 91

Taste testing food - 81

Total: 881