Jonggi - Eternal Sunshine MV

ATEEZ ☓ #ZIPPER

shadow & silver

I was not supposed to vent here but alas, twitter has too many ppl that know me and i wanna speak to the void in peace. Even tho i crave some attention sometimes >3>

anyway, back to reblogging my favorite ships and pieces of media

My gender dysphoria/envy gets so bad sometimes i catch myself looking at a man/ masc presenting person and having this gut wrenching almost like a disgust jealousy from how their looks, their hair, their figure, its so bad i want to rip the pieces i want from him and glue it to my body.

Current obsession, the babygirl

jongho ✗ kcon thailand 2023

if I ship a man and a woman it's because the woman is nonbinary coded and the man is bisexual and they're both a little unbalanced and mega violent and they perform heterosexuality in the gayest of ways and they're goth and also they are Integra and Alucard because they're perfect and my only straight ship ever.

more people need to care about this with me. omega hold them.

on self-sabotage

the bomb, florence + the machine// appointments, julien baker// abject permanence, larissa pham// never wanted to dance, mindless self indulgence// king, florence + the machine// quote: lauren e. bowman// in the woods, tana french// does the universe fight for souls to be together?, jamie varon// olivia laing on loneliness, marrying the poet ian patterson and the challenge of intimacy// left alone, fiona apple// @mjalti //renegade, taylor swift// a burning hill, mitski// ICU, phoebe bridgers// legit tattoo gun, the front bottoms// just, radiohead

Trigun stampede… im in shambles

I binge watched it yesterday and saw the last episode today. Im in SO MUCH PAIN I NEED TO SCREAM ABOUT IT CAUSE NO ONE ELSE I KNOW HAS WATCHED THE SERIES.

on one hand, I understand why nai did everything he has done, and i lowkey was rooting for him to get his paradise because he is right about how humans no matter what will keep hurting and overusing the plants till they all die. BUT i so desperately wanted vash to prove to him hes wrong, he has SO much faith in humanity that not even humanity itself has, and they keep hurting him and he keeps believing in them and keeps trying to connect with his brother and you’re just sitting there wondering WHY??? Why does he believe in them so much, to the point of hurting himself?

because he is “vash the stampede” and he’ll always believe

in a way, both the brothers have two different ideas of their paradise, their utopia. While nai’s is a place where he and his brother will never have to worry about humans abusing and killing their kind, vash’s is a world where both the species coexist and are mutually beneficial to the other. He wants everyone happy. MY HEART ACHE AS I TYPE THIS CAUSE I GENUINELY CANT SEE NAI BEING A VILLAIN, BUT I ALSO WANTED VASH RIGHT, BUT I ALSO WANTED NAI AND VASH HAPPY AGAIN, BUT I ALSO— *MENTAL BREAKDOWN*

in conclusion, i will never recover. And i love vashwood

intensity

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