You know. Reading is important. Because I'm like always trying to make every line I write this groundbreaking mindfucking art but like. A book is 90% just saying what happened. "I hugged him around the waist." "The chair was brown and overstuffed." "I woke up alone." Etc etc. Like normal ass lines. I just keep comparing my boring, necessary to set a scene lines, with famous authors' absolute best lines and like.... every line doesn't have to shatter the earth. Sometimes someone just sits in a chair and the lines that wreck you come later, one at a time, here and there. It's alright.
reading isn't enough I need to swallow the book whole
Psychoanalysis becomes the training ground of a new kind of priest, the director of bad conscience: bad conscience has made us sick, but that is what will cure us! Freud did not hide what was really at issue with the introduction of the death instinct: it is not a question of any fact whatever, but merely of a principle, a question of principle. The death instinct is pure silence, pure transcendence, not givabie and not given in experience. This very point is remarkable: it is because death, according to Freud, has neither a model nor an experience, that he makes of it a transcendent principle.
Gilles Deleuze and Felix Guattari, Capitalism and Schizophrenia
Light photons, which make up the world around us, were observed inside a vacuum. Their natural locations were completely random.
Human DNA was then inserted into the vacuum. Shockingly the photons were no longer acting random. They precisely followed the geometry of the DNA.
"So you navigate your life with the help of others who held mirrors up for you. People praised your good qualities and criticised your bad habits, and these perspectives -often surprising to you - helped you to guide your life.
So poorly did you know yourself that you were always surprised at how you looked at the photographs or how you sounded on the voice mail.
In this way, much of your existence took place in the eyes, ears and fingertips of others." - David Eagleman, Sum
Trying to do research on time
Physicists; uh yeah, space and time are one but we don't really know what they are actually, we use this highly specific magic crystal tho here have it
Neuroscientists: yeah, we also use the same crystal, but it doesn't matter because you don't experience time like that, we don't know
Some guy in 19th century, yeah time is not internally generated it is out there and you get it from the outside?? And then the idea took over the Europe
?? ? ?
Some neuroscientist: time doesn't exist, it's all happening at once, you brain is a time machine (the title of the book actually , one of my favorite)
Some other physicist: you're right, time doesn't exist in physics it's the humans that order things
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Gravity?
What are we looking at?
Lucian Black, Luciferian Order
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