I dream of you. I didn't see your hair or your eyes, but I still knew it was you. I could feel you, even if we were a thousand worlds apart. You are the purest soul- the one I long to rest within, even when everything else fades
No matter who you are on the outside, I will love what is within. Always.
I'm a melancholic alcoholic
With a tendency for feeling nauseous
Too much love, too much drink
Provides a space for me to think
But my thoughts flee my mind
As quick as they had come
And I am left alone
With my heart feeling numb
The words rattle
In my mind
Like chains
But somehow
They are
Freeing.
They sing a
Silent song
To me
Like whispers in
The autumn
And they are
More beautiful
Than the words
Could ever say
When my sanity is tied so tightly to the notion
That you will always be mine
I hope you understand why I'm broken
When the strings of fate that tangled us together
Begin unraveling
Like the denumount of a bittersweet film
That I've seen coming but just can't bear to watch.
I've turned the ending in my mind
Like a smooth stone in my hand
Feeling for any scratch and mar
To justify holding on
Instead of skipping it on the surface of the sea.
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5/14
Maybe Icarus had the right idea
That it's okay to burn
For temporary bliss
All I need is a kiss
Cause we're already a match
And I'm soaked to the bone
With kerosene
Im on top of the world
But i am all alone.
So i wonder
If a life with you
Would have been worth
Losing it all?
Denouement
The untying of knots
Resolving the loose ends
Or cutting them off
The crow caws once.
A shiver down my spine
I wanted nothing more than to preserve what was mine.
The crow caws again.
Another eerie cry
I tried to fight fate, but you cant win with a lie.
The crow caws once more
A body in the ground
No headstone to mark, only soil in a mound.
The crow falls silent.
The empty only grows
The last attempt to hide my sins, causes them to show.
Lilac words
And lavender hallucinations
Illuminate a world
That is better off
Without me in it
I inhale lemon.
A sweet breath
That ushers in my sleep,
So then i waver
Into a state
Filled with nothing
Except the scent
Of tangerine dreams.