so close to being in the teens for bmi AGHHH
i hate myself and i hate binging
ass so flat it hurts to sit for a long time
oh to have long, thin fingers
having an 3d and being curvy is so hard bc the features i get the most attention on are what i wanna lose
i am not surviving christmas season tell me why i had 900 cal0ries today. fasting when all my family leave but thats not till after new years
day twenty two
ive been incredibly sad recently so i forgot about this. anyway, my lowest weight was probably about 47kg, but then i became $uic1dal and i was convinced i wouldnt live the year out so i binged loads bc i was depressed lmao
‘it’s about control!’ ‘it’s about self esteem!’ ’it’s about-!’ yes, but, unfortunately i am vain! i want to be skinny because i want people to be worried; i want people to look at me and be jealous; i want to be perceived as the skinniest girl in the room. i want to be pretty and thin and disgustingly smart.
day twenty six
getting told "youre so skinny!" by people and to eat more instead of "youre not that fat" and people squishing my cheeks all the time
i fear i am in love with my bsf i cant do this again oml when will i learn