I Hate Myself I Wish I Was A Skeleton

i cannot finish anything on a weird minute, i have to stop doing things on a good number (ex: 12, 12:30)

i hate myself and i hate binging

Hating your bone structure is torture there’s nothing you can do to change your bones.

can i have more diets? where i can search them???

i found most of mine on tumblr, if you search dietspo or ana diets, youll find some 💕 i dont have anymore saved, but u should be able to find some!

2025 is my year. I’m going to lose the weight. 2025 is my year. I’m going to hit my lowest weight. 2025 is my year. I’m going to be thin. 2025 is my year. I’m not going to give up. 2025 is my year. I’m going to be thin by summer. 2025 is my year.

got termed again - new intro post ˚₊‧⁺⋆♱

hihi new people !!

used to be arch444ngel and 4rch444ngel - i always post under #arch44ngel if you ever need to find me

to whoever keeps reporting me, please stop. you're not helping anyone, you're taking away the only place where i can talk about my struggles. like I've said before, i'm not pro anything, this blog is only ever directed at myself. if anything from my blog triggers you, please block and don't report, it only harms me if you do that.

welcome to my personal obsessive-compulsive n!ghtmare ˚₊‧⁺⋆♱

my name's risa

my pronouns are she/her

i'm from the uk

i'm a taurus sun, scorpio moon, and leo rising, and an infp-t

i'm 17 years old, but i will literally talk to anyone

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i have ocd, and i've struggled with disordered eating for around 5 years now. again, PLEASE block, don't report if anything triggers you. this is only a space for me to track my insanity and keep my obsessions all in one place.

please dm me, i am always, always bored. dm to be friends, to vent, to just talk, best believe i will reply.

i may occasionally post something about my struggles, but it is always only as a way to track my thoughts and basically talk to myself. i am very much pro recovery, my thoughts are quite literally uncontrollable, so this blog is only ever directed at myself.

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some of the very many things i'm obsessed with:

religious iconography - sort of obvious (i have crippling religious ocd and years worth of catholic trauma)

classics of all forms

music - i'm not joking when i say this is my life, here's my spotify

manifestation (yes i am one of those freaks, thank youuu. subliminals, crystals, and angel numbers control me.)

the marauders, tsh, dps, bowie (iykyk)

THE HUNGER GAMES - anything dystopian, really. suzanne collins is a visionary.

anything and everything luca guadagnino, wes anderson, and sofia coppola

lily rose depp, kate moss, enya umanzor, timothee chalamet, matthew gray gubler, harry styles - i'm bisexual, evidently

currently specifically obsessed with organic chemistry??? (you are amongst a stem neek with way too much brainrot and not enough motivation to revise)

'i am nothing in my soul if not obsessive' fr.

(and slightly insufferable, but its okay, here's my pinterest).

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currently reading to the lighthouse. i would recommend, if you want a good distraction. been very obsessed with massive attack lately, but i listen to literally everything. my favourite book is probably 1984, or anna karenina. my favourite song changes almost every day, right now, it's wildflower wildfire by lana del rey. my favourite movie also changes often, but i really really like palo alto - here's my letterboxd. my favourite tv show currently is criminal minds (PLEASE talk to me if you like cm, i need to theorise). 

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anyways.

stats:

height: 170cm (5'6 i think)

sw: 125lbs (56.7kg)

cw: 96lbs (43.5kg)

gw1: 115lbs (52.2kg)

gw1: 110lbs (49.9kg)

gw3: 100lbs (45.4kg)

gw4: 90lbs (40.8kg)

ugw: 85lbs (38.6kg)

bmi: 15.5

numbers do not define me. numbers do not define me. numbers do not define me (daily affirmations).

2025 will be a good year. 

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i guess that's everything. i just really need other people to be insane with. please, please block and don't report. and as always, i'm pro recovery, this is just my personal way of processing things.

please be my friend, i crave companionship. 

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stay safe skinnies x

love from risa

REBLOG IF YOU'RE AN ACTIVE 3D BLOG IN 2025 TRYING TO FIND MORE MOOTS

”you have to cut out ALL liquid calories if you want to lose we-“ YOU CAN TAKE MY HOT CHOCOLATE FROM MY COLD, DEAD, SOMETIMES GRAY HANDS YOU SON OF A BITCH

im going out with friends the next three weekends, so my plan for food is this week im eating sushi (its low cal) next week im nervous because im going out with my friend who i eat alot of junk food with but i should be fine and not lose progress as long as its only one day and the week after will probably be sushi again so praying i dont gain