i feel so stupid talking about my issues compared to my friends. like, i cant eat food without having a breakdown and my mind wanders whenever i see something sharp, but every time i try and talk about it i sound idiotic
so that every time they see me, i'm th1nn3r
don’t ignore me. i’ll die
having an 3d and being curvy is so hard bc the features i get the most attention on are what i wanna lose
day twenty three gang!
yes definitely, ive always wanted to be thin, and in asia (where im from) the beauty standard is to be skinny and pale, and im neither unfortunately. tbf i live in a western country now, so ive started liking my skin more
unfortunately i think i’ll always be a junkorexic
day twenty one
im typically XS or S but i dont look like an XS or S bc my arms and face are really chubby
im going to d1e christmas eve and christmas involve so much food and my sister cooks so much. i feel gross already
ok but the best motivation to lose weight for me is when i put on my 3d playlist and meander meaninglessly around fields whilst being overcome by feelings of crippling self hatred
sometimes I think I’m cute but then I see actual cute and pretty people and I’m like “oh” and that is what drives my ed