day two, im 5"1 and i do actually like my height. im smaller than all my friends and the boy i like says he loves how short i am compared to him. when im skinnier i think ill be happier with my height, im so broad and f@t that being short makes me look worse
really craving a cheesestring rn but i ate lunch today so im chugging water instead, plus i only have three left 😔 rations are low
i fear i am overdoing this (potential foods to eat for my bsfs birthday)
day twenty
im currently doing the hello kitty diet, but i dont think i have a favorite yet
“i’m so much better now!” I can barely sleep and I have the calories of an apple bookmarked
“i don’t hurt myself anymore!” My stomach is constantly growling and literally consuming itself
“well i don’t punish myself with harm” if i eat too much I fast until I’m lightheaded or pass out
ive lost enough weight my family is commenting on it but i STILL cant lose off my thighs or cheeks
me and my scars have a love hate relationship
“i will only do baby cvts so they will fade eventually”
also me when my scars actually start to fade:
the only thing thats always on my mind is my weight
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ok any other asians with ana bc chinese new year is KILLING me