Simple Things You Do That Gets Their Hearts Pounding (pt. 2)

Sorry Diluc, Thoma is gonna be my main Pyro user for now. And OMG his hangout event. It's a shame that 5 star characters don't have hangout events and only have story quests. Maybe that'll change in the future.

Pay attention to the last photo..... Aww and especially his voice lines regarding us and oath.

— If Only

[Pairing/s: Teru Minamoto x Reader]

Genre: angst?

Warning: swearing, unrequited feelings fufu.

Note: I don't know where I'm going with this, all I know is I want a Teru angst.

Of course it wasn't you, and you know it can't be you but it still hurts like a bitch. You lay on your bed staring at the ceiling as you try to process what Minamoto Teru had said earlier when you asked him for help in rescuing Aoi and finding number 7.

"He likes Aoi-chan," though after his words he play it off as a joke but you know he meant it, you knew deep inside your guts that he meant it, from his body language to the way he looked when he said those words.

"It makes sense now, but Akane-kun wouldn't like it," turning to your side you hug a pillow and hid your face in it, drowning yourself in your thoughts that is slowly being filled with insecurities that you had pushed away before.

"If only I was smarter or maybe prettier, would he-"

You stop yourself before you could even finish, cause deep down you know he still wouldn't look at you or see you the way he does to Aoi- because you're not Aoi.

If only you were Aoi...

"What am I thinking, I shouldn't even be thinking about that" You sigh getting up to grab your phone on your nightstand, scrolling to your social media to distract yourself from your thoughts.

"If only the mokkes were here, I might feel a little bit more better" you mumbled, heart stings from the lost of a friend and the reminder of your unrequited feelings.

"If only Teru likes me..."

Honestly I don't like it but whatever.

genshin men as models A-

GENSHIN CHARACTERS who...

DILUC who rises up in dawn, certainly far earlier than you. brushing lips against the skin of your temple, letting his mouth linger for a few seconds as he closes his eyes and cherishes the moment, praying to the anemo archon to keep you safe no matter what. carefully supporting your body that leaned on his side with his right arm.

DILUC who would willingly shed his life and die for mondstat without a sign of hesitation but lives for you. DILUC who would pause amidst a pillar while scrutinizing a lone abyss mage, unconsciously scouring the field for a possible exit if things possibly go wrong.

KAEYA who can't keep his hands to himself, be it in a meeting for all the favonious captains or even more public activities. he instead diverges his growing boredom to yourself, gladly letting his hands roam around, sometimes in innocent touches on the skin such as fiddling on the hem of your clothing or not so innocent places...

KAEYA who can't help but let his eyes wander over to you as he most probably disregards another of his fellow captains. KAEYA who stares at you with a smile full of mysterious and a glint just as enigmatic as him shining in his eyes and panics for a split second, swiftly twitching his mouth up in a smirk when you turn your head to his direction.

TARTAGLIA who spoils you rotten with his never-ending wealth that he most definitely doesn't spend on himself alone, he's got to spend it otherwise unless it'll go to waste, right? TARTAGLIA who's eyes grow from cold to instantly warm, his eyes soften while his posture relaxes as he blends into the shadows and silently watches as you interact with his siblings.

TARTAGLIA who's shoulders slouches down in guilt but is brimming with warmth and appreciation when he finds you passed out in the couch, the lousy blanket barely covering your body, exposing it to the cold. he sighs and shakes his head but hoists you up in his arms, brings you close before trudging over to the bedroom with the promise if making it up to you swirling in his mind.

ZHONGLI who unknowingly peers at your lips when in a random conversation with you, his eyes constantly switches over from your eyes and to your mouth over and over again so it's hard to not notice. he apologizes softly, frankly embarrassed at being caught and shyly avoids your eyes.

ZHONGLI would sit on a comfortable chair with your head on his chest as he speaks as though he's experienced the many notable events from past decades and millennia. he wouldn't even notice that you already drifted off with his relaxing voice that is until he looks down after he's finished.

VENTI who strums his lyre and hums a song along with the melody upon the dark starry sky. quietly gazing at you with fond eyes when the song reaches the part where he mentions something about 'forever and love', then laughing softly when he spots you already fast asleep.

VENTI who loves to mess with you with sending bursts of wind, gentle to yourself but fierce to bring an object clutched into your arms high up into the air, letting it spin around violently for a few seconds before letting the wind lead it back to your annoyed self.

XIAO watches from the balcony of the inn, glancing down and observing you from above all while you happily clutch a bag of snacks, waving at the patrons before climbing up the stairs, no doubt wanting to share with him once more. how foolish, he thinks but if so then he's stupid one.

XIAO who doubts that you'll call out his name, more or less mutter it. so why does he await your voice? XIAO who hates to see you hurt, sharply scolding you for being so 'clumsy and stupid' as he leans down and inspects you for any more fatal injuries.

ALBEDO who's attention diverts to you when he picks up a trace of your voice calling out to him. ALBEDO who most likely reminds himself that a creature such as him wasn't born with the same set of feelings, organs, and emotions such as innate beings such as humans so why does he feel the strange fluttering in his chest?

ALBEDO who knows just how to charm you and is aware that you convey the same attraction and love he holds towards you. ALBEDO who suddenly pauses when in the middle of an activity, only to think about memorable moments he knows of you, his lips forming to a graceful and tender smile.

SCARAMOUCHE who criticizes you for bare minimum and is unable to hold back from bursting out a string of insults that pops in his mind in an attempt to deny that him, scaramouche, the balladeer is totally not in love! the anger in him only increases further when he sees your shocked face, not to you but to him. he screams internally, you idiot.. you hurt them! wait I don't care about their feelings--damn it, damn you for making me feel this way you witch!!..

SCARAMOUCHE who reluctantly sits beside you without as much as even uttering a word. just a silent, meaningful action, the two of you sit in a comfortable silence. basking the others presence while scaramouche holds a conflicting storm of unkept and chaotic feelings inside of him.

KAZUHA who greets you with a coy smile, pressing a kiss to the back of your palm while beidou holds back a bark of "how smooth, lover boy!". KAZUHA who's the type to brood and swiftly intervene in a conversation when he catches a crew member getting a little too close, can you blame him? a jewel such as you is something he wants to keep.

KAZUHA who just accepts his fate with open arms when you slide yourself to his side. KAZUHA who holds you close as you both watch the sun rise as the water gently rocks the ship back and forth along with you.

THOMA who never forgets to say "I love you" when going somewhere, even if he's forced by ayato to come in at komore teahouse while you wave him goodbye from the outside, sipping on your tea as he gets dragged in by the head of the yashiro commission.

THOMA who voices his want to finally be free from being cooped up in the komore teahouse for 'so long' and begs you to "please buy something for him because he misses the taste of inazuman street food". brightening up and peppering you in kisses when you agree.

LOOK AT HIM!!!?! He’s adorable and I will physically fight anyone who says otherwise ╭(°A°`)╮

Hold the Aether.

Love the Aether.

Appreciate the Aether.

No Lumine slander allowed tho

Long Gone (11) 

Pairing: Todoroki Shoto x Reader, Todoroki Shoto x Yaoyorozu Momo 

Warnings: Has mature content, profanity, mentions of infidelity and divorce  

A/N: barely proofread and hella late 😭🙏🏻 i'm sorry!! But ahhh we're close to the end!! Thank you to my babies who stayed up until this chapter and are still looking forward to my updates. As usual, I love hearing your thoughts! Let me know what you think!!

Masterlist 

Momo hates being at the hospital. To her it means she failed at something. Failed at protecting herself or the people she cares about.

She resents it. The plain white walls, the smell of sterilants hanging thick in the air, the medical personnels either walking about trying to function despite being tired out of their minds or running around desperately to save someone else's life. 

There's also the lot of them, either patients or just someone anxiously waiting for a test result or a goddamn miracle. Or like her, both.

She finds her breath catching when the secretary peaks in to tell her the doctor is ready to see her now. Her mind reeling back to the night Shoto bid her goodbye. She just remembers feeling so much anger and pain but all that was replaced by shame and guilt the moment she confronted you that night. Momo swallows hard, her hand drifting on her lower belly as she steps into the clinic. God, help her.

Momo spoke robotically as she told the doctor her concerns. Missed period, feeling nauseated and fatigued constantly, her breasts tender, some intense cravings and cramping on her lower stomach..

This couldn't be possible, right? It's days away from her ovulation when they last did it unprotected. She even took the morning after pill. She's not dumb. She took precautions. She's safe.. right?

Yaoyorozu felt nothing as blood was taken, her mind was too preoccupied with worries. Because what if this is karma? Wouldn't it be so ironic to get pregnant now right when Shoto just decided to end the affair after over a year? Wouldn't that just be the universe's way of saying fuck her for screwing someone else's husband and dad?

She feels bile rising in her throat as she considers the possibility of being actually pregnant. God, she isn't ready. What about her career? What would people think? How is she going to do this alone??

But..

What if this.. this baby is her salvation? Her light at the end of this long, painful tunnel? A piece of the man she loves that she would get to keep. A soft gasp escapes her at the realization, a tear slowly sliding down her cheek.

Momo swears time has never moved this slow before in her life. So much so that she played all kinds of scenarios in her head and by the time her results arrived, she was at a state of nadir.

"Yaoyorozu-san.." the doctor starts, smiling warmly at her. Momo hyper focuses on the doctor, latching on to her every word. Her brows shoot up by the end of her statement, the burden anchoring her heart and nervousness from the dreading vanishing in an instant.

"Thank you." She breathes, a wide smile erupting from her lips as tears rim her eyelids. "Thank you so much."

And as Momo walks out of the clinic, she feels like a new person. As if she's given another chance at life. She's so happy that when she bumps into a friend, she bursts further in tears as she hugs her.

"Momo?" Uraraka was obviously startled seeing her at the hospital but she hugs her back, running a comforting hand as the ebony haired girl sobs against her shoulder. "Hey, are you okay??" Uraraka then asks, glancing up at the clinic Momo just walked out of.

"Never been better. Thank you." Momo smiles through her tears as she pulls away. Uraraka gasps softly, proceeding to wipe her friend's cheeks. "Wait, are you?-"  she starts to ask, glancing back at her obstetrician's clinic.

"Yeah." Momo lets out a tearful laugh, interrupting her. "I'm good. I'm sorry, Ochaco but I have to go. It was nice seeing you though." She lets her go and the gravity hero does so too reluctantly, thinking of course she'd want to tell her family first. 

"Sure, yeah! Get home safely!" She says, mirroring her contagious smile and watches Momo excitedly head for the exit.

---

"What did I say?" Uraraka asks Mina in shock as you walk past them, looking as if you've just seen a ghost.Mina winces and scratches her neck, asking back, "Haven't you heard of the rumors?" She lowers her voice even more and walks closer to the brown haired girl, whispering, "Todoroki is having an affair with Yaoyorozu."

Uraraka gasps, her heart falling down her stomach as she stares after you. "I didn't know." She mutters regretfully. "Oh god."

"Are you sure though? Is Momo really pregnant?" Mina asks. Uraraka nods meekly, a frown tugging the corners of her lips. "My husband asked Iida-kun and I to help on their mission after Bakugo dropped out. I then noticed Momo was feeling sick." The gravity hero explains, "She was always nauseated and fatigued. I knew she was secretly dating someone, but she never said who it was! So when I said she should get checked because I think she might be pregnant." 

"After that, I coincidentally saw her come out of my obstetrician's clinic. She looked so happy, she was even crying when she hugged and thanked me." Uraraka sighs. "But God, I didn't know she was with Todoroki. I should have kept my stupid mouth shut."

Mina sighs too and pats her back saying, "It's alright, you didn't know." She then looks at you as you head to the exit, shoulders slumped and visibly trembling, due to which Mina could only guess are the sobs rippling out of you. "Poor Y/n."

---

Is this what you get? For thinking things are actually starting to look up for you and Shoto finally? For thinking there's a tad hope left?  

You wobble in your high heels as you walk to the car where Shoto already was with Yukio. God, you don't even want to see his face right now but you don't really have a choice. When Shoto sees you emerging from the double glass doors of the hotel leading to the parking lot with tears flooding down your face, his eyes widen. Shoto jumps out of the car and runs towards you. 

"Y/n, what happened?" He asks worriedly and tried to reach for you but you slapped his hand away, "Do not fucking touch me." You say through gritted teeth, rooting him in place with your tearful glare. 

"Just get in the damn car. Or if you want, call a driver or walk, I don't care. I'm going home with my son." You walk past him. "I want you out of the house first thing in the morning."

Shoto swallows hard, brows shooting up in confusion. "Love, wait I don't understand, I thought-" he catches your wrist before you could open the car door. "Hey, can you tell me what's going on? What happened?" He asks again desperately, grabbing your elbow and making you face him.

"What happened is you fucking ruined everything!" Your face is red as you turn to him screaming. "And I can't believe I dumb myself down for you! Thinking we could work through this somehow or at least have a decent relationship for Yukio!" You sob as you push him away. Shoto's heart breaks all over again. He thought so too after your conversation last night. What the hell changed? 

Shoto tries to reach for you again and this time you don't push him away. "Y/n, I'm trying, I promise." He mutters, voice starting to tremble.

You shake your head dismissively. "Was that speech of yours last night another one of your lies?" You asked. Shoto frowns defeatedly as he looks into your eyes, the little trust he regained last night no longer there. "What? No, I meant every word. I love you-" 

"So much, right?" You asked mockingly, a wry laugh escaping you. Using his own words to throw daggers at your husband's heart. "You love me so much that you slept with someone else? That you were so ready to throw away everything, even our family?"

You pulled away from him and screamed into your palms, muffling your cries. "God, Shoto. As if hurting me and risking our son's future and well-being is not enough! You had to go and be stupid to bring another innocent kid into this world to drag into your mess!" Your chest heaves as you desperately try to push air down your lungs. The surprise that painted your husband's face made you scoff.

Shoto's mouth drops open. He is on the brink of his sanity at this point, turning pale just like you did earlier upon hearing the news. His knees feel like they're going to give in underneath him.

"Momo's pregnant?" He asks breathlessly. 

"Are you expecting someone else? Did you put your dick in another whore?" You ask sarcastically and Shoto shudders, shaking his head vehemently. "Then who else could it be?? Of course, it's Momo!" 

"Are you sure?" He asks, eyes blown wide with fear. You sigh heavily, stubborn tears leaking out. "At least that's what I've been told. Maybe you should go to her and find out for yourself. But as far as I am concerned, I am done with the two of you." You turn on your heel, wanting nothing more than to be with just Yukio.

"Y/n, wait-" Shoto tries again though, hugging you tight from behind. "Wait, please."

"For all the bullshit you told me last night, you at least got one thing right." You mutter. "I do not need to hurt myself further by staying with you while you clean up the messes you made. And if you really are having another kid with Momo, then I truly have no reason left to fight for us. I'm done, Shoto." 

"Y/n, don't give up on me please." He whimpers, burying his face on the crook of your neck. "You and Yukio are all I have left."

"You should have thought of that before." You grit your teeth and pry his hold off of you. "I'm done." 

You got into the car defeatedly and stopped short before driving off. You turned to look at him for the last time and saw Shoto still unable to process what you just said to him, staring at the ground, tears speckling the concrete by his feet. You could almost feel bad for him. 

But you can't keep trying to save this relationship at your expense. You can't be the one taking all of the burdens all the time. So as much as it pains you, as much as you still love your husband after everything he's done, you're choosing to walk away. 

You got in the car with a heavy heart, tears now freely falling down your cheeks. You were so engrossed with your own sorrow that you didn't realize Yukio had woken up and was looking at your sobbing figure. He pretends to go back to sleep for your sake, his own little heart breaking in pieces.

---

When you get home, your eyes are almost shut from all the crying. You couldn't help the hiccups escaping you even as you open the door to take Yukio from the car seat. To your surprise, your son has tear streaks staining his cheeks. Your vision blurs as a wave of fresh hot tears prick at your already sore tired eyes.

"Honey, hey." You try to plaster on a smile but it just comes out wrong, Yukio just stares at you and places his little hand on your face, wiping the tear that had just fallen. "Let's get you to bed." You picked him up and carried him into the house. You feel Yukio's small hand gently rubbing your back just like how you used to comfort him if he's scared or upset. The gesture had you biting back the impending cries that wanted to escape you, thinking how fortunate you are to have such a good son.

"You and dad are fighting again." He asks meekly as you sit him in bed to change his clothes. Yukio starts sniffling seeing how hurt you are as he looks at your face. "Mommy," he started to cry too. "Please, stop crying." 

"I'm sorry." You muffle your sob, kissing the side of his head. "Mommy's okay. I'm so sorry." You hugged him tight, worry flooding you. Has he been awake all that time? Did he hear you and Shoto fighting? How much does he understand?

"Was it because of me again?" Yukio then asks, making your brows furrow. You pulled away and held his face.

"Honey, no. God, no!" You shake your head vehemently. "Why would you think that?" 

"Because I don't clean my toys right away after I play? Because I always run around the house and tease Kenshin-san? Because I'm always noisy when dad is busy in his office?" He cries harder and you realize these are the little things Shoto used to scold him about. "Because I can be good, mommy, l promise." 

"Tell dad I'll be good." He hiccups. "Maybe then he won't fight with you again."

You thought you were utterly broken before but wow, were you mistaken. It felt as if your soul left your body. Your sweet son thought this is all his fault and he's blaming himself. But thank heavens he didn't hear or understand what you and Shoto were actually fighting about earlier. 

"Yukio, listen to me." You rub your thumbs against his cheeks and wipe his tears. "Daddy and I have problems to deal with, but none of that was ever your fault." A whimper escapes you as you hold him tight, rubbing his back soothingly to try and calm him. "We both love you so much. You're the best thing that happened to us so don't you ever say those things again." 

You pull away just enough to lean your forehead against his and say, "You're the best son anybody could ever dream of having. You're kind, smart, creative, funny and so thoughtful. Your dad and I love you so much!" Your voice breaks as a broken sob escapes you. "I feel very lucky to be your mommy and I would do anything for you."

The toddler continues to sniffle, his arms looping around your neck to hug you again. "I don't want to see you crying anymore, mommy." He murmurs. You muffle your sobbing on his shoulder, gazing up at the ceiling as you try to will the tears to stop. "Okay, love. Okay." You whisper, kissing him on his shoulder. You take a deep breath and nod, wiping your eyes and face as you pull away to face him.

You smile down at him and he slowly stops crying too. Your shaky smile turns into a genuine one seeing Yukio smile back. 

"I promised, didn't I?" You then lean in to kiss his nose. "Mommy can do anything for you." 

---

God, he should have left the party earlier. Why did he really have to witness this shit?

Bakugo sighs heavily, sitting in his car and thinking he should probably just run the fucking bastard over to end his misery. Did he really just fucking got that slut pregnant? 

"Goddamned asshole." He mutters as he glares at Todoroki, standing amidst the parking lot like the idiot that he is. He then sees you drive out of the building and he puts his car on drive. The tire screeched against the pavement as he stopped just a foot away from Todoroki. 

"Get in." He grumbles. Todoroki blinked at him and wiped his face. Bakugo groans when another bloody second passes with Shoto just gawking at him. "Get in the fucking car and let's go see for ourselves if you really did knock that bitch up!" 

Todoroki soundlessly gets into Bakugo's customized orange and black Pagani. Bakugo exhales sharply as he starts driving. "For a damn second there, you had me rooting for you, Icyhot." He grumbles. "I thought maybe you were just stupid but you actually do love Y/n and can still deserve her. But if ponytail is really carrying your kid, then.. shit." 

"If she is, then I have to take responsibility." He mutters. "For everything that I did. Y/n would probably never forgive me. But I deserve that. I just hope she won't keep Yukio from me." 

Bakugo throws a quick glance at him, trying to decipher what's really going on inside his head. 

"And if Yaoyorozu isn't pregnant? What then?" Bakugo asks. Shoto looks as if he hasn't considered that possibility. Bakugo almost reached over and smacked him thinking, did he really fucked his mistress raw? How stupid is he??

But then, Todoroki clenches his jaw and says, "Then I'll do what I promised you earlier." He says with a determined look on his face. "Get my shit together and win back my wife and son. This time, making sure I actually deserve to be in their life."

---

"Are you sure about this?"

Yaoyorozu smiles at her dad and gives him a hug. "Yeah, dad." She then sighs. "I just hope mom will eventually come around and forgive me." Her dad rubs her back and squeezed her once before letting her go. 

"Your mom loves Y/n as her own." He says, tucking a loose lock behind her ear. "What you did is terrible but not completely unforgivable, especially now that you've realized how wrong you are and are regretful about it. But I want you to reach out to Y/n, to continue asking for her forgiveness." 

Momo nods, her lips quivering. "I will, dad. Just not right now, things are still so fragile and Shoto did say they're going to try and work things out." She sighs. "I don't want to get in the way of that. So this would probably be best." 

Her father sighs too as he glances at the last of his daughter's luggage being loaded on the car. "If you think so, darling. Make sure you take care of yourself. And call me the moment you land."

Yaoyorozu hugs her father tightly and says her goodbye. But then she sees Bakugo's outrageous sports car pull up in front of their manor. Her eyes widened seeing Shoto in the passenger's seat.

"What is he doing in here?" Her father asks and Momo had to place a hand on his chest. "Dad, please. He's probably just here to say goodbye." She murmurs. "Let me talk to him. Get inside, I'll head to the airport right after. I promise."

Yaoyorozu's dad fixed his glare at Shoto then back at her. "No more mistakes, Momo. No more." He warns, gaze softening as he cradles her cheek before heading to the house.

Momo sighs and nods at her driver to go wait inside the car. She then meets Todoroki halfway and eyed Bakugo behind him who remained seated inside his car. 

"You're leaving?" Shoto asks as he stops in front of her. Yaoyorozu nods and crosses her arms over her belly, making Shoto's eyes zero on it. 

"Yeah, I figured this is better,for all of us. Start anew." She murmurs. "I'm so sorry for everything."

"Me too." Todoroki says and wets his lips. "But what about the baby? Didn't you plan to tell me?" 

Yaoyorozu looks taken aback, her brows knitting. "What?"

Shoto closes the distance between the two of them and holds her arms. "You're carrying our child. That's why you're leaving, right?" He sighs. "If that's your decision, I'll respect it. But I want to help you through it. I want to work on myself for Y/n and Yukio. And taking responsibility for you and our kid is a part of it-"

"Wait, wait, stop-" Momo places a hand on his arm, shaking her head. 

"I'm sorry, Momo. I am choosing Y/n. But I'll support you on this, I won't abandon our-" he continued to ramble on and Momo had to physically shut him up.

"Todoroki, I am not pregnant!" She practically screams at him out of frustration.

Shoto rips her hand away from his mouth and stares at her in.. relief. "You're not?" He asks, he could not help the small smile tugging the corners of his lips.

"No!" She shakes her head vehemently. "Who told you?" Momo asks out of curiosity but before Shoto answers, her eyes widen, recalling her interaction with Uraraka a few days ago and her mouth slacks. "God, it was my mistake. I'm so sorry." She then says but to her surprise, Shoto hugs her. 

"No. I'm sorry." He says and then sighs. For the first time in a while, Shoto feels hopeful. There may be a chance left for him and Yaoyorozu to redeem themselves. 

Momo took a deep breath and hugged him back tight. "I forgive you. I hope one day Y/n will forgive us too." She murmurs. Shoto pulls away first and gives her a sad smile. "If there's one thing I'm sure about my wife, it's that she's the strongest and most loving woman I know."

"Do everything to win her back. You won't get to find another woman like that." Momo says with a tearful smile, cupping his cheek. "Make sure this time around, you deserve her and never take her for granted." 

"I will." Shoto murmurs. "Take care of yourself, alright?" He says and Momo exhales shakily. She couldn't help herself and hugged him one last time. She still does love him but now knows her place. And his place, which is by your side and Yukio's. "You too, Shoto." She mumbles against his shoulder.

"Alright, alright! Jesus." Bakugo rolls his eyes as he pries the two off of each other. 

"So you're not knocked up, right?" Bakugo clarifies, Momo glares at him but nods anyway.  He then turns to Shoto and slaps his arm, "Congratufuckinglations, you won't father another gremlin. Now let's go!" Bakugo grumbles under his breath, "You two keep hugging like that you might end up making a fucking sequel to your damn mistakes." 

He then grabs the front of Todoroki's dress shirt and practically drags him to his car. Fuck's sake. The things he does for you.

Before he gets inside, he hears Yaoyorozu call after him. "Bakugo-san!" She doesn't know for what exactly, maybe for driving Shoto here? But she says, "Thank you."  Feeling as if it was only right for her to say that to him.

Bakugo looks at her for a whole second and sighs. "Sure. Just go on and get the fuck out of here." With that, he settles back in his car and drives off without another glance at the girl who single handedly destroyed the woman he loves.

---

 "Thank you, Bakugo." Shoto says as Bakugo pulls up in front of his house. 

"I didn't do shit for you." He grumbles, keeping his glare out the windshield. Shoto nods and undoes his seatbelt. "I know. It won't diminish the fact that I owe you though."

"And I'm sorry, for the things I said to you before. I guess I was just intimidated because deep down I knew that you are doing a better job at caring for my own wife and son." At this Bakugo meets Todoroki's gaze, his grip on the steering wheel tightening.

"And if I don't win Y/n's heart back, if she falls in love again, I sincerely hope it's with you." 

---

You sat in your old shared bed and took in every corner of it, reminiscing the early years of your married life made you smile sadly. With a resigned sigh, you head to the walk-in closet and pull out your suitcases.

The clothes pile in as you choose the ones you want to keep. Mostly ones that are given to you by Fuyumi and Rei. That doesn't stop you though from seeing the ones Shoto personally gifted you with making your chest pang with ache. And when your hand fumbles over that particular tyvek garment bag amongst the rack of dresses and gowns, you froze. 

It's your wedding dress. The one you told Shoto you'd pass on to your daughter. The one Shoto said you'll two have once Yukio is five, which he is now. Shoto was so sure your next kid would be a girl. A shuddering sigh escapes your lips. If things didn't turn out the way that it did, could you be carrying your second child? Your daughter? The one who'd inherit all these dresses and jewelries Shoto showered you with?

You turn away from it brusquely and settle on the carpeted floor to start folding in the ones you decided to keep. Moments later, you see Shoto emerging in the doorway. 

He walks to where you are and sits across from you. "Shouldn't I be the one packing?" He asks softly. You merely shake your head and keep your eyes on the clothes in front of you. "I changed my mind. I can't stay here."

Shoto nods quietly and then starts helping you. You watch him, seeing him folding the way you taught him to. Remembering it was one of the few disputes you two resolved as a married couple. You got sick of cleaning after the clothes he tried on and decided not to wear. So one day, you left it until he came home and told him, "I'll teach you how I want your clothes folded. This way you'll know it's not as easy as I make it look." 

You remember the startled look on his face and the focus he had when you started teaching him how to do things your way. Since then, there weren't any shirts on the floor or any article of clothing out of place.

Why couldn't it have been that easy? You ask yourself as you continue looking at your husband sadly.

"She's not pregnant." Shoto mutters, breaking the silence. "And she's leaving. I don't know though if it's just out of town or out of the country. I didn't ask."

That stopped you from resuming what you were doing and had you holding your breath. 

"And we've said our goodbyes, Y/n. We both regret what we did to you." Shoto looks up at you sincerely, holding his breath as he waits for you to respond.

You swallow hard and avert your gaze. "I can't forgive you both just like that. And our son blames himself for our fights. So when I tell him about our separation, how do you think he'll react?" 

"Let me talk to him, Y/n." He murmurs. "I'll tell him the truth."

Your heart aches as you stare up at him in disbelief. "Shoto, he's just five."

"I'll tell him it's all my fault. That you tried everything to keep our family together but I have problems that I need to sort out which I can't do without hurting him and you." He says and you shake your head, wanting to refuse putting your son through this. He's too young.

"I mean it, Y/n." He reaches over to grab your hand. "I love you. And even if it meant letting you go and letting Yukio hate me because of the truth then so be it. You've protected him from me long enough. It's time for him to see that his dad isn't the perfect man he thinks he is." 

"Let me apologize to him and tell him I'll be better." He raises your knuckle to his lips. "Just please, Y/n. Give me a chance to fix this." 

You take a deep breath, willing the chaos in your mind to quiet down. It's like whatever path you take, you'll end up having your heart more broken than it already is. Either way, Yukio gets hurt. But maybe Shoto is right. Maybe you need to stop protecting him and let him take the fall for once, even if that means opening your son's eyes to the bitter truth. 

Before you decided to have Yukio, you and Shoto did it together head on. Now it's only fitting that when you decide for his future, you and Shoto get to do it together too.

So you promise yourself that this will be the last time. The last time you'll allow yourself to have faith in your husband, in high hopes that what you're doing is what's best for Yukio. 

With a deep staggering breath, you squeezed Shoto's hand and nodded, saying, "Okay, Sho.. I'm trusting you."

And you hope this time, he won't make you regret it.

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Alternatives to Self Harm

Alternatives for when you’re feeling angry or restless:

Scribble on photos of people in magazines

Viciously stab an orange

Throw an apple/pair of socks against the wall

Have a pillow fight with the wall

Scream very loudly

Tear apart newspapers, photos, or magazines

Go to the gym, dance, exercise

Listen to music and sing along loudly

Draw a picture of what is making you angry

Beat up a stuffed bear

Pop bubble wrap

Pop balloons

Splatter paint

Scribble on a piece of paper until the whole page is black

Filling a piece of paper with drawing cross hatches

Throw darts at a dartboard

Go for a run

Write your feelings on paper then rip it up

Use stress relievers

Build a fort of pillows and then destroy it

Throw ice cubes at the bathtub wall, at a tree, etc

Get out a fine tooth comb and vigorously brush the fur of a stuffed animal (but use gentle vigor)

Slash an empty plastic soda bottle or a piece of heavy cardboard or an old shirt or sock

Make a soft cloth doll to represent the things you are angry at; cut and tear it instead of yourself

Flatten aluminium cans for recycling, seeing how fast you can go

On a sketch or photo of yourself, mark in red ink what you want to do. Cut and tear the picture

Break sticks

Cut up fruits

Make yourself as comfortable as possible

Stomp around in heavy shoes

Play handball or tennis

Yell at what you are breaking and tell it why you are angry, hurt, upset, etc.

Buy a cheap plate and decorate it with markers, stickers, cut outs from magazines, words, images, what ever that expresses your pain and sadness and when you’re done, smash it. (Please be careful when doing this)

The Calm Jar (Fill a mason jar or similar with colored water and glitter. When feeling upset or angry you can shake it to disturb the glitter and focus on that until the glitter settles.)

Blow up a balloon and pop it

Alternatives that will give you a sensation (other than pain) without harming yourself:

Hold ice in your hands, against your arm, or in your mouth

Run your hands under freezing cold water

Snap a rubber band or hair band against your wrist

Clap your hands until it stings

Wax your legs

Drink freezing cold water

Splash your face with cold water

Put PVA/Elmer’s glue on your hands then peel it off

Massage where you want to hurt yourself

Take a hot shower/bath

Jump up and down to get some sensation in your feet

Write or paint on yourself

Arm wrestle with a member of your family

Take a cold bath

Bite into a hot pepper or chew a piece of ginger root

Rub liniment under your nose

Put tiger balm on the places you want to cut. (Tiger balm is a muscle relaxant cream that induces a tingly sensation. You can find it in most health food stores and vitamin stores.)

Alternatives that will distract you or take up time:

Say “I’ll self harm in fifteen minutes if I still want to” and keep going for periods of fifteen minutes until the urge fades

Color your hair

Count up to ten getting louder until you are screaming

Sing on the karaoke machine

Complete something you’ve been putting off

Take up a new hobby

Make a cup of tea

Tell and laugh at jokes

Play solitaire

Count up to 500 or 1000

Surf the net

Make as many words out of your full name as possible

Count ceiling tiles or lights

Search ridiculous things on the web

Colour coordinate your wardrobe

Play with toys, such as a slinky

Go to the park and play on the swings

Call up an old friend

Go “people watching”

Carry safe, rather than sharp, things in your pockets

Do school work

Play a musical instrument

Watch TV or a movie

Paint your nails

Alphabetize your CDs or books

Cook

Make origami to occupy your hands

Doodle on sheets of paper

Dress up or try on old clothes

Play computer games or painting programs, such as photoshop

Write out lyrics to your favorite song

Play a sport

Read a book/magazine

Do a crossword

Draw a comic strip

Make a chain link out of paper counting the hours or days you’ve been self harm free using pretty colored paper

Knit, sew, or make a necklace

Make ‘scoobies’ - braid pieces of plastic or lace, to keep your hands busy

Buy a plant and take care of it

Hunt for things on eBay or Amazon

Browse the forums

Go shopping

Memorize a poem with meaning

Learn to swear in another language

Look up words in a dictionary

Play hide-and-seek with your siblings

Go outside and watch the clouds roll by

Plan a party

Find out if any concerts will be in your area

Make your own dance routine

Trace your hand on a piece of paper; on your thumb, write something you like to look at; on your index finger, write something you like to touch; on your middle finger, write your favorite scent; on your ring finger, write something you like the taste of; on your pinky finger, write something you like to listen to; on your palm, write something you like about yourself

Plan regular activities for your most difficult time of day

Finish homework before it’s due

Take a break from mental processing

Notice black and white thinking

Get out on your own, get away from the stress

Go on YouTube

Make a scrapbook

Colour in a picture or colouring book.

Make a phone list of people you can call for support. Allow yourself to use it.

Pay attention to your breathing (breath slowly, in through your nose and out through your mouth)

Pay attention to the rhythmic motions of your body (walking, stretching, etc.)

Learn HALT signals (hungry, angry, lonely, tired)

Choose a random object, like a paper clip, and try to list 30 different uses for it

Pick a subject and research it on the web - alternatively, pick something to research and then keep clicking on links, trying to get as far away from the original topic as you can.

Take a small step towards a goal you have.

Re-organize your room

Name all of your soft toys

Play the A-Z game (Pick a category ie. Animals, and think of an animal for every letter of the alphabet

Have a lush warm bubble bath with candles!

Do some knitting

Do some house hold chores

Alternatives that are completely bizarre. At the least, you’ll have a laugh:

Crawl on all fours and bark like a dog or another animal

Run around outside screaming

Laugh for no reason whatsoever

Make funny faces in a mirror

Without turning orange, self tan

Pluck your eyebrows

Put faces on apples, oranges, or other sorts of food

Go to the zoo and name all of the animals

Color on the walls

Blow bubbles

Pull weeds in the garden

Alternatives for when you’re feeling guilty, sad, or lonely:

Congratulate yourself on each minute you go without self harming

Draw or paint

Look at the sky

Instead of punishing yourself by self harming, punish yourself by not self harming

Call a friend and ask for company

Buy a cuddly toy

Give someone a hug with a smile

Put a face mask on

Watch a favorite TV show or movie

Eat something ridiculously sweet

Remember a happy moment and relive it for a while in your head

Treat yourself to some chocolate

Try to imagine the future and plan things you want to do

Look at things that are special to you

Compliment someone else

Make sculptures

Watch fish

Youtube funny videos!

Let yourself cry

Play with a pet

Have or give a massage

Imagine yourself living in a perfect home and describe it in your mind

If you’re religious, read the bible or pray

Light a candle and watch the flame (but please be careful)

Go chat in the chat room

Allow yourself to cry; crying is a healthy release of emotion

Accept a gift from a friend

Carry tokens to remind you of peaceful comforting things/people

Take a hot bath with bath oil or bubbles

Curl up under a comforter with hot cocoa and a good book

Make affirmation tapes inside you that are good, kind, gentle (Sometimes you can do this by writing down the negative thoughts and then physically re-writing them into positive messages)

Make a tray of special treats and tuck yourself into bed with it and watch TV or read

Write words in the sand for them to be washed away

Alternatives for when you’re feeling panicky or scared:

“See, hear and feel”-5 things, then 4, then 3 and countdown to one which will make you focus on your surroundings and will calm you down

Listen to soothing music; have a CD with motivational songs that you can listen to

Meditate or do yoga

Name all of your soft toys

Hug a pillow or soft toy

Hyper focus on something

Do a “reality check list” – write down all the things you can list about where you are now (e.g. It is the 9th November 2004, I’m a room and everything is going to be alright)

With permission, give someone a hug

Drink herbal tea

Crunch ice

Hug a tree

Go for a walk if it’s safe to do so

Feel your pulse to prove you’re alive

Go outside and attempt to catch butterflies or lizards

Put your feet firmly on the floor

Accept where you are in the process. Beating yourself up, only makes it worse

Touch something familiar/safeLeave the room

Lay on your back in bed comfortably (eyes closed), and breathe in for 4, hold for 2, out for 4, hold for 2. Make sure to fill your belly up with air, not your chest. If your shoulders are going up, keep working on it. When you’re comfortable breathing, put your hand on your belly and rub up and down in time with your breathing. If your mind wanders to other things, move it back to focusing ONLY on the synchronized movement of your hand and breathing.

Give yourself permission to…. (Keep it safe)

Create a safe place for yourself and take yourself there

Lay on the grass and watch the clouds. You can try to make pictures with them too.

Light a candle and watch the flame

Alternatives that will hopefully make you think twice about harming yourself:

Think about how you don’t want scars

Treat yourself nicely

Remember that you don’t have to hurt yourself just because you’re thinking about self harm

Create a safe place to go

Acknowledge that self harm is harmful behavior: say “I want to hurt myself” rather than “I want to cut”

Repeat to yourself “I don’t deserve to be hurt” even if you don’t believe it

Remember that you always have the choice not to cut: it’s up to you what you do

Think about how you may feel guilty after self harming

Remind yourself that the urge to self harm is impulsive: you will only feel like cutting for short bursts of time

Avoid temptation

Get your friends to make you friendship bracelets: wear them around your wrists to remind you of them when you want to cut

Be with other people

Make your own list of things to do instead of self harm

Make a list of your positive character traits

Be nice to your family, who in return, will hopefully be nice to you

Put a band-aid on the area where you’d like to self harm

Recognize and acknowledge the choices you have NOW

Pay attention to the changes needed to make you feel safe

Notice “choices” versus “dilemmas”

Lose the “should-could-have to” words. Try… “What if”

Kiss the places you want toSHor kiss the places you have healing wounds. It can be a reminder that you care about myself and that you don’t want this

Choose your way of thinking, try to resist following old thinking patterns

The Butterfly project- draw a butterfly on the place(s) that you would self harm and if the butterfly fades without self-harming, it means it has lived and flown away, giving a sense of achievement. Whereas if you do self-harm with the butterfly there; you will have to wash it off. If that does happen, you can start again by drawing a new one on. You can name the butterfly after someone you love.

Write the name of a loved one [a friend, family member, or anyone else who cares about you] and write their name where you want to self harm. When you go to self harm remember how much they care and wouldn’t want you to harm yourself.

think about what you would say to a friend who was struggling with the same things you are and try to be a good friend to yourself.

Make a bracelet out duct tape, and put a line on it every day (Or any period of time) you go without self harm. When it’s full of lines, take it off and make a chain out of all the bracelets and hang it up somewhere where you can be reminded of your great progress.

Alternatives that give the illusion of seeing something similar to blood:

Draw on yourself with a red pen or body paint, or go to a site such as this, where you ‘cut’ the screen (be aware that some users may find this triggering, so view with caution)

Cover yourself with plasters where you want to cut

Give yourself a henna or fake tattoo

Make “wounds” with makeup, like lipstick

Take a small bottle of liquid red food coloring and warm it slightly by dropping it into a cup of hot water for a few minutes. Uncap the bottle and press its tip against the place you want to cut. Draw the bottle in a cutting motion while squeezing it slightly to let the food color trickle out.

Draw on the areas you want to cut using ice that you’ve made by dropping six or seven drops of red food color into each of the ice-cube tray wells.

Paint yourself with red tempera paint.

‘Cut’ your skin with nail polish (it feels cold, but it’s hard to get off)

Use red food colouring on your skin

Alternatives to help you sort through your feelings:

Phone a friend and talk to them

Make a collage of how you feel

Negotiate with yourself

Identify what is hurting so bad that you need to express it in this way

Write your feelings in a diary

Free write (Write down whatever you’re thinking at that moment, even if it doesn’t make sense)

Make lists of everything such as blessings in your life

Make a notebook of song lyrics that you relate to

Call ahotline

Write a letter to someone telling them how you feel (but you don’t have to send it if you decide not to)

Start a grateful journal where everyday you write down three: good things that happened/ things that you accomplished/ are grateful for/ made you smile. Make sure the journal is strictly for positive things. Then when you feel down you can go back and look at it.

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