16/08/18 So Studying Languages Is Amazing But I Also Love Sciences And There Is An Introductory Lecture

What’s your favourite book?

Ever finish a book and get lost in all the choice of where to go next? I have no idea! So come on Tumblr, help me out :)

For anyone who sees this in the same boat, if you haven’t met Nineteen Eighty Four by George Orwell or All The Light We Cannot See by Anthony Doerr, I urge you to give them a try!

2/5/19

I get a fizzing feeling all over when I solve a puzzle :)

Or it may be a heart attack brought on by the fact that’s it’s flipping May already!

I keep procrastinating so hard and I should probably do something about that but I swear I’ll start taking action tomorrow or something

I can’t believe I have signed myself up for at least 4 more years of exams and mental burnout

Education in its current form is completely unsustainable. I feel like I hate chemistry even though I have to go and study it in October

24/10/22

My fourth and final year is in full swing! To get started on big documents like literature reviews for my thesis, I find it easier to just start writing. Pen to paper, because I’m an old-fashioned girl (and Word is annoying when you need sub- and superscripts and words you don’t find in a dictionary, as does a chemist). I was then able to overcome the paralysis and start typing the actual thing.

(This was a brain dump — what do I know and where did I get the information from? What do I need to look up that should go into the review?)

Sorry for the absence lol

Me: The main problem isn’t necessarily the volume, it’s the dissonance

a neurotypical: if you have noise sensitivity why do you listen to loud music?

me: one loud noise is easier than 20 loud noises all at once.

3-8/12/18 - 84-89/100 days of productivity

Omg life is so hectic right now - sorry for no posts for ages! So I have had my Cambridge interviews (I think they went... ok?) and am now revising for mocks beginning on Monday morning with German!

I’m at my friend’s house doing some Quizlets of new vocab :)

I wish I’d learned to struggle properly earlier in my education. I’d always understood everything first time round, but now I can’t say that and I don’t know how to fix it

We all forget things.

So today I was meant to give a presentation in front of my chemistry class, but I completely forgot and didn’t prepare anything. I was mortified when my name was called and I told her, “But I can’t - I’ve literally not prepared for this at all!” The room went silent and I felt so awful in that moment.

My chemistry teacher said, “I will see you outside.” And I thought I would get a bollocking. As soon as I got outside, I broke down crying, annoyed at myself because I never do things like that. I wanted to show her how on it I am and how well I can rise to challenges like public speaking, but instead I failed to follow a simple instruction and humiliated myself in front of the class.

So I went outside, ready to go on the defensive about why I should not be made to present. My teacher gave me the biggest hug and told me that I am only human - which is why she would let me do my presentation next week and just in front of her. She reminded me not to be so cruel and hard on myself, because I do that. I beat myself up over little things.

She told me that I have so much on my plate right now with university stuff as well as upcoming mocks that I should allow myself to be forgetful once in a while.

She told me that she is usually the most organised person ever but she forgets to bring stuff to the right lessons all the time.

She told me she doesn’t hate me, isn’t disappointed in me and all she wants is for me to stop stressing. And then she told me to go to the toilets and wash my face while she told the rest of the class not to talk about it.

My point is, it’s okay to skip a beat and forget something. It’s okay to admit you are only human.

And I am blessed to have a teacher who genuinely cares. How many people can say the same nowadays?

Happy Saturday:)

Making summaries on a really rainy day