Things I’ve Noticed Naturally Sk1nny People Do

I need new characters for the 2025 season. Why is everyone in my life someone that I already know?

something comforting about seeing the same workers at my local grocery store and making them scan my 4th sugar-free pudding mix of the month

poemy rant

Nobody ever called me fat. Nobody ever said there was something wrong with my body, ever.

Yet I am the one who chose to inflict this mentality upon myself. My stomach and thighs suddenly doubled in size one day when I realized most of my friends carried smaller bodies. They never had to think once about losing weight because they were already naturally gifted with those bodies. They didn't have to eat less or exercise. But most importantly, they were happy with what they had. They weren't miserable like me, wishing I could cut the fat off using my bare hands.

It makes me sad whenever I see them snacking or buying a whole box of donuts at the grocery store just because they feel like it. They don't think twice about the calories and how much they're allowed to eat for the rest of the day. They even mock me for checking the calories every time and warn me about how many I'm about to ingest if I take a bite out of an unhealthy snack. They've repeatedly told me they don't see anything wrong with my body and how they wish they had thighs like me because theirs are too thin.

So why do I feel like this? Where did this come from? When did having a flat stomach and stick legs become my goals?

Nothing ever feels good enough anymore. I look at the scale some mornings and bawl my eyes out because it's not the number I want to see, even though I'm technically underweight. But I don't feel like that at all. I'll consider myself underweight when there is no fat left to jiggle when I run, and no extra skin to pinch or poke at. When I'm running so low on energy I can feel my brain shutting off, my legs trembling and ultimately collapsing. I'll be on the ground, limp and exhausted as I fall into a deep sleep.

I'll be desolate, but I'll be thin. I'll be happy in a bikini just like my friends, proudly showing off the body I worked so hard for.

Hopefully.

. ݁₊ ⊹ . my motivation :

- the th-gh gap

- the flat tummy and visible r-bs

- more attention

- "how'd you do it?"

- "you look sick..."

- being smaller than everybody i hate

- so people care more about me

- so the smallest size won't fit

- won't have to worry about if a size is too small

- i'll look good no matter my outfit

- can have a bad mood without being seen as 'b¡tchy'

- won't feel so bad on lazy days

- won't feel like a w@nn4r3x¡c and actually feel valid

- to be 'iconic' th-nsp0

- family member / friend reactions

* i'll be adding more ♡ :)

i often wonder who ik irl on here like does that really th1n girl that complimented my hair when she rung me up at the grocery store have an 3dblr? is she on 3dtwt? does she know why im only buying tictacs and gum?

neeeeeeeeeed

Once you have an 3d it’s like everyone decides to be skinny or am I just noticing more?😭

i wanna hate myself for eating a full twix bar so badly but i just can’t it was so delish and worth the c@l0ries

idk why i run to the mirror every time i go to the bathroom thinking im gonna get the bc of the century

my stomach is flat from being -ved but the bottom. it won’t fucking LEAVE

it’s like i can’t even wear a crop top bc it looks so off