This Was Trashed But I Am So Sad To Be Stuck In This Art Block Again 💔hopefully It Ends Soon

I don’t come on this app often to say how I feel, I leave that for other apps. But I need to get these thoughts out as soon as I think them.

I think a lot people at this time must not feel real and I need to know if I’m alone in this. Since the news of the election, I have never not felt so real as I do in this moment. It doesn’t feel good but it feels so real. So disgustingly dehumanizing. I’m forced to confront the future in ways I didn’t honestly expect.

First I fear for my sister who has had to live thru 3 times in a row my parents voted for him and she’s barely a teen now. How will life go for her?

I grieve too. As a lesbian who is of age to vote, I had that privilege, and I voted for my rights to be obtained as well as many in the country. Now I am forced to confront not only that, but I have to grieve for the fact my parents will not be in my life in the future. While I live in their home. With them, people who may be affected by the hell he will reap, I must sit here and obey. I fear they are too far gone to understand. I would be too scared to fight with them anyhow.

There’s too much. So much information, so little I could do to escape, too. I am fearful of the little kids in my life. So painfully I sit with my little cousins and hope that the future is good to them. So good to them in fact that history won’t have to repeat as it does now while they are conscious of the things around them.

I hope this turns around. And if not I hope it is the fastest 4 years of my life. If it even stays at that.

The trope where people don't recognize each other because it's been so long since they last interacted and they've both changed so much that they're basically strangers UNTIL one of them does their Signature Thing™ and the other just stops dead because oh. It's YOU. All at once it's so clearly you

Today my professor picked up a garter snake, said “Ow!” five times as it bit him, set it back down, and said, “Okay. That’s one defense mechanism snakes have.”

Missing my people so much it’s not even funny I love them all so so much it’s so funny bc sometimes I start hyperventilating a little bit. Why does my body react that way. Which begs the question ab myself is why does my body react in ways that isn’t normal, especially ab happiness. I made a comment to my sister, jokingly, recently that whatever she touches she collects and I realize. The same is literally true for me. I look at my bedroom and almost all the books I like I have collected. Even gifts from others I have collected. Recently I started collecting pizza tables (????) and I have the uncontrollable urge to just keep adding to it. Whenever I reread a series I like and I have to walk around like my mind isn’t reeling rn why does that happen??

every morning I wake up and think of these words from philosopher cher

Why is this Ronan and Gansey help me

i am full of love and also fatigue

First post :33 (my art, credit if repost)

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