EVERYTHING IS ALL REUSED!!!!!!!!

There’s something soooooooooooooo beautiful in the way she sings, “And I'm just. getting. color. back. into. my. face, I'm just mad as hell 'cause I loved this place for so long.”

Like singing through it with gritted teeth, just barely starting to come out of the fog, realizing she survived (but at what cost) and it was hard-won, knowing she was dying and she had to do it, but it still hurts because she once loved the home that turned into a prison, she loved who they were in that home at one point, but she’s mad that it all blew up and she’s mad that she let herself stay in that place for long now that she has confirmation by leaving that it would have killed her. There’s exhaustion, there’s anger, there’s tenderness, there’s resignation all at the same time in her voice.

It’s such a stunning song.

i am God’s favourite little cosmic joke. his favourite suffering soldier. his sacrificial lamb. his poor little meow meow. his whore of babylon. i’m his fallen angel. i’m gonna bite his neck until it bleeds

The Breakfast Club (1985) dir. John Hughes

"She runs hot. She makes boogeyman out of the clothes she dumps on her bedroom floor. Always has."

Hooow do people not talk more about this quote? The way Logan talks about Shiv here is so interesting given their dynamic

And I whisper to myself, I am safer alone.

Wasted, Marya Hornbacher / . / . / . / painting by Mladen Ilic / Paul Auster / Letters To Milena, Franz Kafka / Wide Sargasso Sea, Jean Rhys / The Departure Of The Train, Clarice Lispector / Beau Taplin

"this relationship only ends if one of us die" x "as if whoever comes first isn't coming back to haunt the other"

oh, 🌻, how I adore you

i feel like i need to cry for days and days

hm well

Anaïs Nin, from a novel titled "A Spy in the House of Love," published in 1954

wanting to feel wanted is another recurring theme I’ve noticed on this album. she wants her lover to want her back and prioritize her (imgonnagetyouback, the alchemy, the albatross, so high school). she wants her exes to wonder about her (the black dog, chloe or sam or sophia or marcus, peter). as soon as she feels wanted again, she makes drastic decisions, whether it be leaving her current relationship or rekindling it (guilty as sin vs imgonnagetyouback). she’s at her lowest when she feels discarded or resented. she’d rather be experimented on and broken over and over again than left stranded (down bad). he runs because he loves her. she’ll bolt before he gets the chance to.