NOT spoiler free.Β contains triggering subjects: missing persons, age gaps mentions, + more. please read and reblog with caution.
β iβm guilty for loving him/her/them. and for hating him/her/them. for killing him/her/them.Β β
β iβm guilty for loving him/her/them.Β β
β iβm guilty for killing him/her/them.Β βΒ
β if you search her/him/them room, youβll probably find it.Β β
β youβre not lying.Β β
β i didnβt see you.Β βΒ
β i saw a woman/man living freely. not in a basement.Β β
β it didnβt make sense for a missing person to be in the living room making a call.Β β
β have you kissed someone significantly older?Β β
β are you daring me to?Β β
β iΒ think because of our friendship, itβs where it all went wrong.Β β
βΒ Β youβre officially a missing person. the police are looking for you.Β β
βΒ Β friendship happens between two willing parties.Β β
β given the power dynamic between you, i wouldnβt call it that.Β β
β i can fix this. iβll go home. iβll tell them..Β β
β iΒ donβt know. i told you iβm not a good liar.Β β
β i need your help.Β β
βΒ Β you kinda made it open season when you gave her/him/them a black eye!Β β
β why did you do it?Β β
β iΒ didnβt have a reason not to believe her/him/them.Β β
β i donβt care! you abandoned me!Β β
β why isnβt she/he/they running faster?Β β
β then why would you send this letter?!Β β
β iΒ will die trying to protect you from everything.Β β
β thatβs a pretty big commitment at sixteen.Β β
β itβs a little bit of a stretch, donβt you think?Β β
β iΒ know, just β¦ call it a motherβs/fatherβs intuition. i feel it in my bones.Β β
β youβre so smart, youβre open, and youβre bold.Β β
βΒ iβm glad, and surprised that we can just sit here together like this. β
β iΒ want to believe you, butβ¦Β β
β i saw you with my own eyes.Β β
β i followed you that night!Β β
β why are you doing this?Β β
β youβve built a fortress around yourself for good reason.Β β
β you deserve kindness, [name:optional.]
β being on your side cost me my job, my reputation, my family as i once knew it.Β β
β can i confess something?Β β
β i used to really dislike you, like a lot.Β β
β i donβt hear that very often.Β βΒ
β secrets are scary because everybody has them.Β β
β well, sleep tight. donβt let the bed bugs bite.Β β
β our parents have been basically married for a decade and weβre pretty much strangers.Β β
β talking might help. i can listen.Β β
β a therapist is not a sister/brother.Β β
β iΒ donβt go hunting without arming up first.Β β
βΒ Β you are actually trash, [name:optional]!
βΒ Β really? what? no mocking whatsoever?!Β β
β iΒ need to ask you something, and you need to tell me the truth.Β β
β how many times have you been inside this house?Β β
β i got addicted to the rush of it.Β β
β i donβt know whatβs going on but, iβm here.Β β
β you can say that i pulled away from you but you pulled away from me too.Β β
β iΒ donβt understand where all this rage is coming from.Β β
βΒ but if you want to talk, you know where to find me.Β β
β god, you sound just like her/him/them.Β β
β iβm so sorry. i jumped to conclusions and i didnβtβ¦Β β
β youβre embarrassing yourself.Β β
β now run along.Β β
β as i very clearly stated, i donβt want to speak with you in this moment.Β β
β did you see her/him/them?Β β
β i just donβt know what to think.Β β
β you know i would never lie to you. i would never lie to you, okay?Β β
β you know i would never lie to you.Β β
β [name:optional], i hope you rot in hell!Β β
β you are getting out and dancing with me this time.Β β
β if anyone can hear me, itβs [name:optional].Β β
β that feeling is called guilt.Β β
β leave her/him/them alone.Β β
β youβre my new favorite person too.Β β
β youβre like my favorite person, maybe ever.Β β
β i was raised to be afraid of disappointing anybody.Β β
β christmas was truly the first time i really afraid of him/her/them.Β β
β making me doubt myself is so much worse.Β β
β you look awfully young to be an assistant principle.Β β
β you donβt know what youβre saying.Β β
β i think you should call the cops on me.Β β
β i think iβd be the prettiest girl in all of jail.Β β
β really nice smile, by the way.Β β
β i still donβt get why coffee smells so good yet tastes so bad.Β β
β i feel like i just disappeared and she just took my place.Β β
β i feel replaceable and itβs not a good feeling.Β β
β how did it happen?Β β
β iβm not sure you really want to hear about that.Β β
β so thatβs a no, then.Β β
β thereβs not a magic pill that fixes things.Β β
β we can do the work.Β β
β i believed everything you said.Β β
β i did everything you asked.Β β
β the moment that i questioned you, you tore into me.Β β
β you raised me to be blindly obedient.Β β
β my whole life, you have been toting me around like one of your purses.Β β
β why did you bring her/him/them down here?Β β
β hardly anyone knows who i am and i love snacks.Β β
βΒ iβm going to be less like myself and more like what you want me to be.Β β
β can you not see how cruel that is?Β β
β can you not see how you ruined my life!Β β
β you didnβt even want it!Β β
β you stole what was basically my trauma journal and shared it in a courtroom.Β β
β we are just a few months away from the trail.Β β
β youβre not giving the impression that youβre the wronged party here.Β β
β i am the most hated person in the nation.Β β
β and you want me to be more like her/him/them?Β β
β we all want what we canβt have even if we have to change ourselves to get it.Β β
β there are some moments in life that changes forever.Β β
β you really like her/him/them, huh?Β β
β can you please just give me a minute.Β β
β itβs never going to be normal again.. is it?Β β
β you know, i canβt even remember when it ever was.Β β
β whatβs happening to you.. i canβt even imagine.Β β
β i have no one. i have nothing.Β β
β [name:optional] isnβt who you think she/he/they is.
β we have evil living among us. right beneath our noses.Β β
β good aim. iβm impressed.Β β
β itβs a pretty lame and embarrassing first impression.Β β
β okay, well, iβm not leaving until you tell me.Β β
β why didnβt you say hi?Β β
β look, i know what iβm doing.Β β
β are you still on my side?Β β
β your memoryβs been shaking since the trauma.Β β
β donβt you think itβs possible you didnβt see what you think you saw?Β β
β itβs kind of hard to tell which way is up these days.Β β
β i need to tell you something that is a long time coming.. you were right.Β β
β we kissed and i lied to you about it.Β β
β you deserve the truth.Β β
β iβm really really sorry. i really donβt know what else to say.Β β
β do you want to hit me?Β β
β say it again.Β β
β thatβs the nicest thing youβve ever done for me.Β β
jackal smokes because i saw one (1) fanart of her and i went too feral.
does this get me banned from honkai impact fandom
jackal is definitely the type who would rather you compliment her mind / intelligence rather than her looks. now donβt get me wrong, she knows sheβs gorgeous! and will definitely use that sometimes, but lordy does she have a huge ego that stems mainly from knowing how smart she is and would totally be all smug and satisfied when you praise that. this also goes in line with how her ego can just totally overtake her caution and let her plans go to foil so itβs also a good way to like completely manipulate her but thatβs another thing-
she also does get the tiniest bits awkward when her looks are complimented, given how she wears the mask almost 24/7 and becomes even more so when her eyes are praised.
I just canβt unsee furry jackal and thatβs the only way I imagine her in dialogues
i wanna figure out a birthday for jackal but also i know nothing so i might just go bother @deathcage-
β i saw you with my own eyes.Β β / from raven!
β-Did not,β Jackal spats before her mind could think of a better... definitely wittier comeback but as of now, her attention had promptly been stolen by her hand struggling to fix the mask Raven so rudely yanked up. Fingers grasped the muzzle, keeping it firmly over her face in case this partner of hers decided to go in for seconds.Β
Had she been upset about being seen? .... No. Not really. With Raven, it was okay-Not that she would ever admit that-But the sudden movement close to her face and Ravenβs own appearing close to hers startled her more than it shouldβve. Dull amber eyes had widened, and she backed up, limbs flying and face reddening before she yanked the mask back down.
βWell, I hope youβre pleased with yourself. Youβve snuck a peek at my brilliance-Consider yourself lucky!β Jackal scoffed, teeth gritted as she busied her hands straightening her coat.Β βIs that all you wanted....? To just... see me?β Brows raise, eyes glaring holes into Ravenβs satisfied little mug.Β
obsessed with people who stan side characters itβs so funny like youβll see them talk endlessly about count gobbledegook IV and then you go to wikipedia and find out theyβve been in five episodes total across a 300 episode series
yeah raven thats the Disrupter-inator 3000 to you
@deathcage: jackal is probably an aquarius me: disgusting that means i have to make your birthday pretty damn soon
β it was just a dream. a bad dream. β β iβve heard the rumor that you canβt stand me any more than the plague. β β you have to rest. weβve still a long way ahead of us. β β mistakes are also important to me. i donβt cross them out of my life, or memory. β β i donβt remember what happened. only that i was frightened. β β that is my fate, my reason, my life. and it is not what i chose. it was chosen for me. β β remember, magic is chaos, art and science. it is a curse, a blessing and progress. β β itβs better to die than to live in the knowledge that youβve done something that needs forgiveness. β β calmly, calmly, just donβt faint, iβm beside you. β β you are already dead. everything in you has already died. β β what the hell are you searching for? trouble? β β donβt you think that the time has come for more truthful confessions? β β difficult times are approaching. difficult and dangerous. β β look around you β there is crime and sin everywhere. β β this is no legend or fairy-tale. it is the truth. the sincere truth. β β itβs crap β all these princesses, sorceresses, destiny, love and fanciful tales. β β i lose a great deal of my charm when someone gets to know me better. β β he who fights by the sword dies by the sword. β β they say that itβs a bad signβ¦an omen. β β i will keep your secret. you have my word. β β let me remind you that spells are a serious matter. they are cast with grace and pride. β β did i wake you? sorry. β Β β you do not kill out of fear and hatred, but in order to save lives. β β are you going to leave me in suspense? that canβt be the end of your story. β β what have i done to deserve to be so high on your list? β β there, where mountains tower today, one day there will be seas; there where today seas surge, will one day be deserts. but stupidity will remain stupidity. β β iβll carry on killing monsters in the ruins of this world until some monster kills me. β β when you know about something it stops being a nightmare. when you know how to fight something, it stops being so threatening. β β you forget that i know you, so donβt play the unfeeling mutant, devoid of heart. β β the less you know the better. β β you are not leaving here alone. i wonβt let you be alone. not right now. β β who do you want to deceive? me? or maybe yourself? β β donβt play at being a hero. you have got yourself mixed up in a dangerous affair. β β i wouldnβt want anything bad to happen to you. β β i owe you exactly as much as you owe me. no more and no less. β β we are no more than toys in the hands of gods. β β you are important to me, and always will be. β β donβt talk to me about emotions. iβve had enough of all this talk about emotions. β β the anger and vengeance of the gods hangs over you. β β mind your tongue, and who youβre speaking to. β β is it possible you donβt believe me? β Β β i am the one who ought to be asking for forgiveness. β β for you, itβs an adventure. for me, itβs a game in which the stakes are survival. β β you donβt have to kill your feelings. itβs enough to kill hatred within yourself. β β to be neutral does not mean to be indifferent or insensitive. β β thereβs no such thing as a fair fight. you have to make use of every advantage and every opportunity you get. β β from what iβve heard about you, i have no doubt you would manage. β β itβs your own fault and your own problem. β β stay with me tonight. β β youβve mistaken the stars reflected on the surface of the lake at night for the heavens. β β you look almost thirty, think youβre just over twenty and act as though youβre barely ten. β β it all depends on who uses magic, how they use it, and to what purpose. β β you want to run from me? no one has escaped me yet. β β intolerance and superstition has always been the domain of the more stupid amongst the common folk. β β you like me? you have been good at concealing it up until now. β β why have you gone so red, crimson as a poppy? β β do you have to spoil everything you touch? β Β β i warrant that it is better to count yourself amongst those few than amongst everyone. β β magic is everywhere. all around us. easily accessible. β β you are interested in strange matters. you ask strange questions. β β life is a priceless gift and should be protected. β β you are not so remarkable as to make me fall on my knees and raise my eyes to the heavens. β β something tells me you are not the person i took you to be. β β this had to happen at some point. this had to happen. β β thatβs everything? you havenβt lied about anything? havenβt forgotten anything? β β you runt. you scum. you arrogant nobody. β β thank you for rescuing me. β β if youβre afraid, turn back. β β youβve no heart. you really have no heart.. β β iβd be proud and happy to fight at your side. β β i see you have applied yourself to fulfilling the demands of fate and destiny. β β the sun is still high, even if it is obscured. you can still train. β β come into the light. donβt lurk in the dark. β β your fears are unfounded. entirely ungrounded. β β loyalty is devilishly difficult to manage. β β you shouldnβt have said that. β β your wound has to be dressed and weβve got to get out of here. β β you wonβt understand and you donβt have to understand. i did what i had to do. β β you arenβt afraid of anything? answer truthfully. β β war is constantly hovering over us like a vulture. β β iβm afraid of death, just like everyone else, but i grew used to the idea of it a very long time ago. β β the world is falling to ruins. we can watch it happen and do nothing. or we can counteract it. β β whatβs the matter with you? are you going to be sick? β β you are cunning but not careful enough. β β i donβt want to hurt you, but if you come near meβ¦ β β have you calmed down sufficiently for me to safely approach and take a look at you? β β i want to talk to you. i donβt need an audience. β β iβm not in the habit of poking my nose into other peopleβs secrets. β β youβve got a tongue as sharp as a wasp. β β have you been taught anything other than making holes with a sword? β β what the hell is this? who beat you like this? β β before you said that, you still had a chance to live. now you donβt. β β i help you sometimes but i do so out of my own free will. β Β β everyone comes across someone who will better them someday. β β murder is always murder, regardless of motive or circumstance. β β itβs all lies. just a poetic invention to make the story prettier and more touching. β β take this and put it to your nose or you will be covered with blood! β β your valuable friendship is too important to me to disappoint you. β β i was worried you were going to ask me another one of your unequal grand questions. β β you look but have no eyes. you listen but have deaf ears. β β answer my questions. please. β β i donβt have to comply with your instructions and orders. β Β β you really do believe we are in some danger? β β couldnβt you, just once in your life, do something right? β Β β what i intend is my business. donβt get mixed up in this or thereβll be an incident. β Β β was someone asking about me? β Β β all this is going to start concerning you β and sooner than you think. β β i knew you wouldnβt understand. β β listen. whatβs done is done. β Β β war is war. you whack the enemy in the backside, and they whack you back. β Β β destiny cannot be avoided. β β weβre tempting fate. weβre tempting fate too much. β β fighting doesnβt bother me, and a bit of bloodβs nothing new. β β itβs not nice to eavesdrop. β β whose side are we on? whose side are we against? whoβs our friend and whoβs our enemy? β β both sides despite those who sit on the bench. β β whatβs your name, if itβs no secret? β β donβt be in such a hurry to tug the lionβs whiskers, because this lion is not dead yet. β Β β iβm too old for this sort of thing. too old. β Β β i know you. youβre ruthless, youβre cruel. β β i know how to draw a bow too. β β you betrayed my trust. β β your chances of me forgiving and forgetting are non-existent. β β whatβs got into you? thereβs not a grain of sense in your prattling. β β life is an endless train of surprises. β Β β have you lost your mind? β Β β such matters should not be left to chance. β β we canβt afford to make a blunder or a mistake now. β Β β careful, or your arrogance will be the end of you. β Β β letβs throw formalities aside. β Β β we donβt have much time. it would be a sin to waste it. β β donβt fool yourself that itβs different this time. itβs never different. β β why are you looking at me like that? β β sincerity works both ways. you ask me any question and i will answer. sincerely. β β being kind-heartedβ¦that might be a problem because it is widely believed i donβt possess any such organ. β β iβve already seen a war. i donβt want to see another. β β i rarely laugh. i really need to have a good reason to laugh. β β you talk so beautifully, i can listen to you for hours. β β you think you know it all, but you donβt. β β furious as a cat. sparks in your eyes; just wait and youβll hiss. β β poetry is eternal and immortal. it knows no beginning, it knows no end. β β i see that you donβt know me at all. β β letβs not talk about it. letβs not worry too soon. β β donβt play the child because youβre not one anymore. β β have a safe journey. iβll be thinking of you. β β i havenβt got anybody anymore and i am someone else. β β iβm afraid you still know too little. β Β β magic isnβt for show. magic is not some street market trick. β β violence breeds violence. β Β β thereβs no returning to the past. thereβs no one there for me anymore. β β for the time being, trust me and do as i ask. β β let me message your hand and arm. β β magic, like a spiked arrow, is lodged in you. β β chaos is afraid of you. but it wants you to be the one who feels fear. β β there is chaos and order, good and evil in all of us. β β i donβt want to lose everything again. β β youβve got yourself mixed up in destiny, far more than youβve bargained for. β β first of all, let us have something to eat and drink. β β you still have time to turn back. itβs not too late. β β what are you staring at me like that for? β β in a minute youβre going to faint from loss of blood. β β go to sleep, youβre barely on your feet. β β are you angry with me? β β magic, is in some peopleβs opinion, the embodiment of chaos. β β well. are you going to tell me or not? β β i get angry just as rarely as i laugh. β β iβm here. iβm at your side. donβt be afraid. β β hold your hands out so i can see them. β β you canβt stop a soldier from being frightened but you can give him motivation to overcome that fear. β
independent "jackal" / leila cleo from honkai impact. adopted by mak / kai. est 1/26/22.
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