Lagrange Markipliers Or Something Idk I Forgot All My Multivariable Calc.

at some point I was wondering what about the researcher publishing their paper in an expensive journal and it turns out that the author does not make a lot of money from that, so it really is about fucking this exploitative system and not doing any substantial harm to the researcher, if anyone was worrying like I was

This is about Sci-Hub. yeah we get it.. gatekeep knowledge and protect the interests of capital…

i’m starting a collection

Weaving Stereographic Projection

I made a stereographic projection by weaving paper strips!

Here's a Julia package for the computation of the shapes of the paper strips.

GitHub

GitHub - hyrodium/ElasticSurfaceEmbedding.jl: The weaving paper strips: shape optimization by geometric elasticity

The weaving paper strips: shape optimization by geometric elasticity - GitHub - hyrodium/ElasticSurfaceEmbedding.jl: The weaving paper strip

Japanese blog post about this: https://note.com/hyrodium/n/n7b7cf03a7d91

The chili plant made a deal with their God to only be consumed by things that could spread its seeds and fly. The chili received capsaicin, making itself painful to eat for mammals, but not birds, and all was well for the chili.

Then the human shows up, tastes it, and likes the pain. So now there's this flightless fucking mammal eating the chili. Like not even a fruit bat or anything, a flightless fucking mammal chomping on the chili.

What the fucking shit, God, cried the chili, I specifically requested the opposite of this.

Now hold on, wait a moment, replied the God who talks to plants but has no idea what the fuck these apes are going to do next. It might be something cool.

And in a flash of a second, in barely fraction of the time that chili took to develop capsaicin, the humans went from walking across land bridges and rowing little boats across small waters, into building ships that could cross oceans. More humans tasted the chili, and liked the pain. They took the seeds with them, and planted it elsewhere.

See? They spread the seeds.

They're still not flying, said the chili, still feeling insulted and betrayed.

But before the conversation was over, the humans were still not done fucking around and nowhere close to finding out. The ships became machines, and another machine was invented, capable of flight. Now, not only were the humans farming chili on continents far too far away for any of the birds that originally ate it could dream of flying, but the chili flew with them to lands where it could possibly not grow, so that humans over there could also eat it and enjoy the pain.

You see? They spread your seeds and fly.

It doesn't count as keeping a promise if you only manage it by a fucking accident, said the chili, still somewhat insulted. But nonetheless, the chili thrived.

Theory Time

The reason endermen don’t like it when you look at them is because they communicate telepathically with one another by locking eyes! Humans are absolutely not designed to do this so when we look at them we are accidentally projecting all of our thoughts into them at the same time and it hurts :(

fun fact! did you know that you can gain extra ‘forbidden time’ by staying up late in the night? but Watch Out

The proof is left as an exercise to the IRS

I have a possibly unusual question. since I left high school and was no longer being forced to read I completely stopped looking at fiction and other books that are not math textbooks. this is partly because I fucking hated reading as an activity – I have adhd and asd, so not only my attention regulation causes a lot of problems, I also struggle with visualizing what's happening and imagining/undestanding the intentions and mindsets of the characters. now, I am properly medicated so attention isn't as much of an issue anymore and I remember enjoying some of the books I've been forced to go through. I miss reading, overall it had a positive impact on my thinking process, I miss analyzing the human experience, so to speak

I liked Dostoyevsky, Vonnegut, Philip K. Dick, Huxley, Kafka and some other "philosophified" authors. I also enjoyed war-themed books in general such as all quiet on the western front, and everything related to the soviet union

finally, my question is, what would you recommend for someone with this taste, who also likes math¹, has a hard time with visual imagination and people but enjoys analyzing human experience, who would possibly like to see a represenation of themselves in the characters of the novel? I would love to rebuild my reading habits, but I am lost as to where to start so I don't get discouraged

¹ I included math in here because maybe there is a book about what it's like to be a mathematician (or a scientist of some kind) that give some existentialist vibes or something, if it exists I want to read it lol

21 VII 2023

oh god I haven't posted anything personal in a very long time

I've been super busy with exams, essays and then my thesis, all I did was sleeping and studying

I defended my thesis 40 minutes ago! it's done! in two months I am starting the master's degree program

this was probably the most brutal exam session I ever had lol it started a month ago and I had no day off since. after finishing my normal exams I've been working 12 hours per day to complete my thesis and thanks to my advisor who was working just as hard as me, we did it

I was so close to failing differential geometry. the exam was really bad, probably my worst ever. the questions were mostly about this one topic covered during the last class – we discussed maybe 3 problems and the professor decided that this is good enough lol basically we were supposed to read his mind and guess what else there is to learn. I scored 35% and apparently that's more than enough to pass – the grades go from 3 to 5 and I got 3.5, so that's literally "more than enough to pass". there were only 3 people who scored 50% or more, so yeah, that seems fair

that week of studying differential geometry was the most stressful week in the last 3 years, I fucking hate it when it's unclear what I'm supposed to learn and I have no idea how to do it. thank god I passed, I don't know how I would do it again before taking the september exam

anyway, I passed algebraic topology, number theory and algebra 2 with flying colors and the reviewers really loved my thesis! they strongly suggest publishing it, but I think I will try to finish the second part of the proof before I do that

I already found the advisor for my master's thesis, of course I don't know what it's gonna be about, but since I had some algebraic topology this year, I am thinking it's time to learn algebraic geometry now

sweet jesus it's finally over, I can't believe it. and something new is starting