Can Someone Please Get These Hoes Under Control I'm BUSY

*through tears* I don’t ever want to let my fear of failure trump the wonder of mathematics, I don’t ever want to be so scared of it that I forget to treasure it, I don’t ever want to let my feelings of being small deter me from even trying to dig deeper, I don’t ever want to turn my eyes away from the beauty, even though it is blinding. Never, never, never. 

are you a girl?

I am, but I thought that was obvious given that I have a picture of me in my icon.

7-9 VIII 2021

did math and coding nothing special really

sleep: good

concentration: good

phone time: good

reading about measure theory. here is a great book:

everything is so well explained here. i wish i could do more math than i have time for but i guess it's fine, it's holidays, i will wreck my brain completely anyway when october comes

tomorrow more measure theory and topo

“Mathematician Henry Segerman demonstrating how a linear 3rd dimensional plane is only a projection of the curved 4th dimensional space time.”

2-3 VIII 2021

it's 4am currently, i woke up after a 5hour nap and i don't plan to sleep anymore, time for topo

sleep: weird but going in the right direction i guess

concentration: fine

phone time: good

i am currently dragging myself through some of the most important theorems in multivar calculus i believe. inverse function theorem, implicit function theorem, diffeomorphisms and stuff. the proofs are quite simple but very long hence exhausting, my least fav kind of proofs. right now i'm doing topo

tomorrow (or rather today) i'm planning to do more topo and possibly finish my notes from that calculus chapter

Real estate agent, 5 minutes into the meeting with a topologist: So, when you were talking about "contracting" a "house with two rooms",

The Washington Post's Mensa Invitational invited readers to take any word from the dictionary, alter it by adding, subtracting, or changing one letter, and supply a new definition.

Here are the winners:

i'm conducting an experiment on how to study the theory effectively

there are i guess two main ways:

(1) read and take notes simultaneously

(2) read first, then take notes

so for the first one, there is the risk of going passive with the note-taking, writing down the symbols without focusing on their meaning. for the second one there is the risk of zoning out and just reading the symbols, again, losing their meaning

the problem seems to be that the processing of sheer symbols and processing their meanings might be disjoint and their natural tendency seems to be so

from my recent actions i noticed that (1) doesn't work for me as effectively as (2)

it might be that when i don't plan to write something down right away, i am more inclined to remember these things short-term as "i won't be able to check it later so remember it now in order to understand what comes next", and when i'm taking notes simultaneously it's "i have it written down anyway so i can take a peek anytime"

so now i'm testing the strategy of

read → try to understand the idea and memorize the elements → why all the elements are important → understand the construction in more detail and write it down

this is how i imagine my mind working:

it means that at first i start to remember the elements as points of its own but simultaneously my brain builds its idea on how they interact and then i notice the inner structure of how the elements are connected with each other in less obvious ways

this idea is cool to visualize how i imagine my thinking, because it shows how learning the topic reduces possible permutations and paths. i have this problem that when i start learning something new i see so many possibilities of what can happen to the elements that i can't discern between crucial and additional stuff. in order to use the knowledge i need to provide some structure

thus the main goal of optimized learning is to take the leap from "i memorized the elements" to "i understand their structure" as fast as possible

and so the strategy (2) might be more effective as it forces the memorization of the elements first and then it is easier to provide structure for them, where i would be defining order on something that's already in my mind. whereas (1) strikes at memorization and structuring simultaneously, it is too difficult for me to see at first in which direction the topic is going, i must know the next point

in a few days i will focus on how "the point" can be defined in this and how to characterize the connections

honestly tho this is some sorta pseudo graph theory and pseudo topology and i don't believe this could be as straightforward. otherwise nobody would ever post any study tips and we would have a field of study called "learning optimazation", this would be too big to go unnoticed. i wish it was so easy to just know how brain works and be able to build such an algorithm that would optimize the desired processes lmao

i wish i was a σ-field or something

side not is, i love this kind of thinking and i love to analyze how the thinking works, especially when it can me algorithmized or structured in some ways. the moment i see something is structured or algorithmic it becomes interesting to me

when a pelican bites you there's no malice in their eyes. they aren't upset at you. they are just hungry and want to see if you fit in their mouths. and if you don't then it's no problem and everything is fine. and if you do then well i guess your fate is sealed but that's ok it's a beautiful animal

today I learned that for a surface with boundary, which I believe we can say a straw is, the genus is equal to that of a 2-manifold obtained from attaching disks to the boundary. hence the straw has genus equal to that of a 2-sphere, which is 0, therefore a straw has 0 holes

also a straw is not homotopic to a torus I think, but rather to S¹, as it's a product of S¹ and a closed interval, which is contractible. a torus has the fundamental group S¹×S¹, thus they cannot be homotopy equivalent. buuut that requires the straw to be infinitely thin so maybe I'm too idealistic for this claim to hold and it is in fact equivalent to a torus

lmao I love math but I can't stop laughing at the fact that it took me two years of university to be able to have this discussion

I’m really into internet discourse but only pointless and stupid internet discourse like how many holes there are in a straw (it’s 2)