Did I Tell U Guys I Got Into An Argument On Twitter Bc I Said Foxes Are Dogs And Someone Tried To Bring

meanwhile typical conversations between my friends:

– so what do you do in math?

– differential equations

– ugh I always hated differential equations

– you?

– general topology

– ugh I always hated topology

The curse of a mathematician is to work in a disliked field

2 IV 2023

oh god the programming task for today was so annoying. I was supposed to process the MIT database with ECG records, and the annotation part of it was hell. after three hours I finally did it but the anger I felt at that time put me seconds away from throwing my laptop out of the window lmao

a recent success is that I calculated the rank of the module that I am working with, the problem is almost solved! when I told my advisor about it he looked so happy, he said that maybe he should start looking for another problem for me to ponder, it was so satisfying. I have a thing for mentors. at each point in my life for which I had a mentor who would teach me my special interest the progress I was making improved significantly and those were always the happiest times of my life. I am not sure if my advisor will stay with me to further show me a way into the research, but it certainly feels like a possibility

today I did some algebraic topology and differential geometry, I'm trying not to fall behind with the material even when I don't feel like studying

next week the easter starts, so I will probably have to visit my family. it's an interesting feeling to see my sister all grown up, there is still the image in my head of when she was barely a teenager and we didn't have much to talk about. now she is almost 18 and the significance of the age difference is nearly gone. when she start university it will be even less noticeable as she will understand what I mean by "fuck my life it's exam session season" lol

for about a week I've been trying to eat more healthy food, it's going fine so far. my biggest problem is that I'm eating way too much sugar but undereating in the general sense at the same time. I'm trying to incorporate more fruits and vegetables into my diet, as well as different kinds of nuts. it's so important to be properly nourished for math and yet I neglect it so much

yesterday I had a conversation with my friend and he said that his vision for doing math is working on some huge open problem such as RH. obviously you do you, but this sounds like such a depressive idea to me lol. chances of solving something like this are almost non-existent, that's such a waste of time to work on something like this for 10, 20, 50 years and make no progress. I mean, it certainly would feel nice to prove or disprove something like RH, but I'm perfectly fine with reading papers and answering all the questions I can anwer, which might not be huge and famous but I'm pretty sure creating those small pieces of theory will be useful to somebody one day

at some point I was wondering what about the researcher publishing their paper in an expensive journal and it turns out that the author does not make a lot of money from that, so it really is about fucking this exploitative system and not doing any substantial harm to the researcher, if anyone was worrying like I was

This is about Sci-Hub. yeah we get it.. gatekeep knowledge and protect the interests of capital…

are you a girl?

I am, but I thought that was obvious given that I have a picture of me in my icon.

26 III 2023

I had a lot of headaches recently, idk why. probably something to do with muscle tension, because my back, neck and jaw just lock up sometimes to the point that every movement hurts. I need to see a doctor about it, maybe I injured something or there is some other underlying cause

I wasn't very strict with studying this week, because a lot of stuff we did was a review of what I already knew but obviously it needs a refresher. if I keep ignoring it, I will end up in a situation where I won't know what's going on at all

I picked up some side hustles along the way, one of which is reading the extra topics from hatcher. one of the lecturers recommended a book to me, about galois theory in the context of covering spaces, I'm reading it right now, seems pretty good

tomorrow I'm seeing my advisor to discuss my progress with solving the problem for my thesis. I think I found the basis for the module, at least I proved that the set I chose generates all the other elements, remains to show that it's linearly independent. the second part of the question is the rank of the module, which is how an algebraic topology problem turned into a nasty cominatorics problem eh

today I completed the first "serious" task for my IT job, which was translating the code from java to python. I have never seen java before, but it looks a lot like c++, so I managed. I wrote 500 lines of code but I haven't tested it yet so debugging might be very painful. lol I guess that means I shouldn't say I completed the task

I am wondering if I should go to a conference, I have until the end of the month to submit a presentation. I am not sure if I can handle a trip to another city, it would be in a month, so there is no way to predict how I'll be feeling. this week I am giving a presentation about some knot theory (skein modules, bracket and jones polynomial) and it's a good pick for the conference too, which makes it a really touch choice as the hardest part will already be done. idk I guess I'll toss a coin, like I did about the IT job lmao

other than that, big thanks to everyone who interacted with my post about book recommendations! there are many great suggestions, it turned out much better than I expected tbh, I thought I would get like 2 or 3 notes. I will post a list of the books mentioned in that post, so it will be easier to find for anyone interested

I want you all to know that an Arab Muslim from Tunis proposed the Theory of Evolution near 600 years before Charles Darwin even took his first breath. Don’t let them erase you.

from now I’ve got to start chasing regular discomfort, because otherwise comfort isn’t comfort but stagnation. you can’t have one without the other. to be challenged is to grow and it’s the only way to actually feel at peace

Zero to the power of anything is zero. Anything to the zeroth power is one. So what is zero to the zeroth power?

The world's most cited mathematicians would seem to be in disagreement about the issue

i've been working on it with my boyfriend for a while now and–

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14 II 2023

so yesterday would be the last of my exams but I decided to retake both the written and the oral part. the grade I would get is 4, so not the highest possible, still pretty good especially for the standards of that course (it's one of the most difficult), but I am not satisfied

it was the professor who suggested I retake the exams, which surprised me, I was mentally prepared to finish being only half-happy about my results and his reactions, strangely enough, inspired me to try harder. he wouldn't offer it if he didn't think I could do better, right?

if he gave me a 5 with my written exam points I would feel like an impostor, because I don't think I am fluent enough with the topics to receive the best grade. to be graded 4 and not being effered the chance to try again would make me feel that it's done, I was just too slow and I can't do anything else to fix it (at least on paper, but we're talking symbolics now) and him giving me a second chance meant to me that he believes in my potential yet doesn't want to give me a participation trophy, instead he made it about earning the reward that I know I deserve

he achieved the aurea mediocritas with this and the most absurd part of it all is that he of all people was to give me this inspiration. half of the students I talk to think that he is pure evil, the majority of the other half think he is an inconsiderate asshole lmao

so in two weeks I'm trying the exam again. in the meantime I will have a party with friends (small – 5 people + my boyfriend's cat) and then I will be grading the math olympiad. afterwards my another grind of algebraic methods shall commence and this time please let me not fuck it up