Life has been interesting to say the least. I’m finally looking forward to wrapping up my legal issues even though it’s on the same day I turn 34. Guess it’ll be my present to myself, and proof that I’m growing. This past year or so has taught me a lot about myself and a lot of the things I thought I knew. It’s an understatement to say that it’s been rough, but, sometimes pain is the best teacher. I have survived, I will preserve, I won’t give up, and I will continue to improve. This chapter might have been a bit dark, but the next one might be the best yet.
“Despite how open, peaceful, and loving you attempt to be, people can only meet you as deeply as they’ve met themselves.”
— Matt Kahn
— Henry Miller, A Literate Passion: Letters of Anaïs Nin & Henry Miller, 1932-1953
Mary Oliver, ‘north country’
I still care, but I want you to be ready, so when you are, I’ll be here.
First on the agenda, order the roofing supplies and paint for the exterior. Already have the new flooring, now just to figure out what colors I want to paint the interior and exterior walls and trim. It’s kinda weird making all the decisions and not having to answer to anyone, but I can’t wait to see the end results.
I want sleepy morning sex 🥺