I’ve Never Really Drank Much… Like At All, But Recently I’ve Been Very Interested In Intox Kink

I have hit 50 notes on my detrans motivation notes game! This means 2 things:

1) I have to start using a male voice. This is actually going to be kind of hard for me. I have a very cis girl passing voice that I always default to. Unlearning using that is going to be harder than it might seem, but I will start trying.

2) Every 50 notes I need to adopt a new masculine interest/hobby. Here’s the thing about this, I already have somewhat male coded interests. I like comic books, sports, and history, among several more feminine interests. That being said when I was a cis girl and I told people I like baseball or whatever, no one raised an eye. Lots of girls like baseball. I need to find some interests that are so AMAB coded that almost no cis girl would touch them. Like if I started playing CS:GO or following UFC or something. Not sure I’d be into either of those particular but I want to hear lots of suggestions from everyone reading this! You honestly could even say something like “hitting on girls” or something lol

As I mentioned this will happen per 50 notes so I will probably be picking up plenty of new male interests. Again this more than just a kink for me, I’m using this as a push to actually become a man.

rawr, x3, pounces on you, yeah yeah that’s all well and good but where’s the passion? where’s the artistry? what aspect holds a mirror up to the audience and makes them confront their own biases and the blood on their own hands? I once killed a man in Reno just to get in the headspace to write my hit outlaw country-western song “I Killed a Man in Reno” but I’m past that phase. Now I hope to enter the hot space of 21st Century pre-apocalyptic furry-core laconicism. What does “rawr” mean? What does it mean to ME? This is my nirvana, this is my hero’s journey, this is my arc of the convenient. How are we supposed to perceive the voice of reason when my inner-dialogue kicked the bucket long before I got around to it? I killed a man in Reno.

how femininely did you use to dress, like what did your wardrobe/style look like?

At risk of identifying myself I wore a lot of striped tops and had short cut bangs with my hair often dyed orange, I usually had an egirl makeup style with winged eyeliner and lots of blush. I was cute. Sometimes I jack off to old pictures of myself.

genuinely please come in my dms and goon with me and try to get me to develop new weird kinks, especially if its cringe.

I'M NOT A GIRL AND IT FEELS SO GOOD TO SAY THAT!!!

Welp okay at least I have an explanation for things now.

I just had an appointment with my psychiatrist and he put two and two together that I actually have a rare condition that causes episodes of sleeping too much, hypersexuality, psychosis, and extremely impulsive behavior, among other things.

This is probably why every once in a while I have a stretch of a month where I’m constantly sleeping and when I am awake I can do nothing but goon in increasingly self-destructive ways.

Feels kinda nice to know I have a medical condition and I’m not just a loser.

The other cool thing about it is that in most people it goes away some point before they turn 30 meaning that I might actually have a functional life before long.

anyone come in my dms and ask me anything

Need to be a good boy and tell my deadname real name to people in my messages

Looking for a crazy yandere girlfriend that wants to obssess over me and invade my personal life and really just consume me whole who is also into/okay with mtftm detrans kink. Ideally she's obsessed with me but only wants me to be a masculine man so she makes me conform to male gender roles. Maybe kind of weird and specific but it's what I need in my life. dm me if you're a bpd girlie that needs a new favorite man.

please please please but also it could be a girl too maybe

god i just. i need a detransed Daddy, ideally older but i'm not fussy, to just take full control of my detransition. no asking what i want, just taking the reins and turning me into exactly the boyfriend he wants, whether that's a manly skinhead leatherfag or a prissy sissy crossdresser, i just NEED a cured man to choose for me

reblog if you're an mtf boy who wants people to come into your DMs / inbox and tell you how masculine and manly you are