Honestly Tempted To Shave And Put On A Pretty Outfit And Lots Of Makeup So I Can Jack Off To Myself In

Went through a whole arc about my facial hair today but in the end it is now gone :)

I had kind of an interesting discussion last night that made me confront some of my internalized transphobia and it made me realize that my detrans kink stems from an aversion to being considered trans. In the past I was really obsessed with being seen as a cis girl, and then since I shaved my head (which was part because of detrans kink and part just me being impulsive) I’ve been in this weird position where because I can’t pass perfectly as a cis girl anymore I feel like I need to go the opposite direction and be seen as a cis guy, and it’s made it difficult to separate the kink from reality. I really do love being a girl and it is certainly my preferred way of being, and committing to detransitioning is probably very bad for me. I put my hrt back in my pill box because I don’t wanna go bald like my dad lol. Obviously I’ll keep jacking off to it I just need to stop acting like actually detransitioning is a good idea (just wait I’ll relapse back into it in under a week). I will miss my big erections and… hm. well I was about to take my meds right now… maybe I could skip my hrt again? I mean there’s no harm in that right? I can keep being a girl and not take hrt for a bit. It’s not like there will be any permanent damage. I just want to be able to get hard. Yeah that’s it. I’m still a girl. I am still a girl. Mmhmm…

this means fakeboys!!!

Let’s be honest chat, I’m pretty girly.

What if this becomes a force fem blog or even a bimbofication blog lol

Reinforce my femininity 🥺

True to my promise in my detrans notes game I have bought boxers to replace my panties. As a bonus they’re all boring, manly grey and black. I’m still a little nervous to take the step of throwing all my panties out but I’ll do that soon.

Absolutely asking for people to come in my dms or just decide for me exactly what kind of man I should be. I need guidance!!!

what if people asked me to decide what kind of man they should be and have them completely reformat their blog and personality to match, and I intentionally chose the most incongruent kind of masculinity to their current identity

instead of pouring water in your pill bottles you ought to piss in them

Oh that’s so insanely unbelievably hot. I know it’s an awful idea but I might have to do it. I’ll keep you updated.

ANYONE WHO CALLS ME MALE TODAY, OR EVEN AMAB, I WILL REMOVE YOUR SKIN ONE SQUARE CENTIMETER AT A TIME.

I AM NOT LIKE YOU.

I AM BETTER.

I AM A REAL GIRL.

I AM A GOD.

reblog if you're an mtf boy who wants people to come into your DMs / inbox and tell you how masculine and manly you are

I haven’t even *mentioned* that I’m schizoaffective on here have I? hehe, since I started posting on here I’ve mostly just been depressed and occasionally manic, but that’s not how it usually is is it??

nononono no it is nooooot!!! I am actually quite many dimensional beyond this ever so simple identity conundrum.

You come here to get off, I come here to live. I am undead, I rot within my ever still walking corpse. My productivity is limited by the demons that bonds me to my identity to my health to my world.

If I can’t kill them who can?

This is why everything needs to be reset, not in the traditional sense but the circles beyond circles :)

there’s a word for this i think, i am not speaking with clarity. Sometimes it happens. Sometimes you should be glad that I ever thought to imagine you here in the first time.

I DO NOT GET DEPRESSED.

I am BEYOND the comprehension of your feeble eye sockets and I will twist the bonds of the galaxy to fly through your being and soul.

Thank you for listening to me 😊