Grown Up Fan Girls Aren’t Supposed To Outlive Their Teenage Heroes My Dude.. This Man Impacted My Entire

— David Foster Wallace

“No one is free, even the birds are chained to the sky.”

— Bob Dylan

i think r/BenignExistence is my favorite subreddit 🥲 i love these pleasant little glimpses into strangers' lives

I wanna say I’m overworked but I actually genuinely like what I’m doing and it’s DRIVING ME FUCKING CRAZY. Last night, I left a lamp open so, throughout the night, I was just subconsciously counting down to the time I needed to get up because I thought it was Thursday. I was also looking forward to what I had to do. It's so crazy. But like, thanks I guess?????? because I'm not as overworked as I thought I was because I don't despise what I'm doing. Then again, I know that I'm already overestimating my capacity to work and take in work and that one day, this might come back to bite me so hard in the ass. I'm just looking forward to SG honestly and I know when it comes around, I will deserve the trip because I worked so hard and OT'd so much. Thanks, Lord, because I did not know shit about this industry when I first got here and yet I am thriving now. This might even create a real career path for me if I give my best and the work I've done in the last 3 weeks has been a testament to that. I hope I am making my boss proud because he is my first boss ever and I was also his first ever hire and we both just took a chance on each other. I hope that this continues on because I really really like what I'm doing and I want to keep doing my best.

In the same light, I want to give the same amount of energy to my other job which ALSO took a chance on me. I always say I'm only around for the money but to my core, I know it's also worth giving my best to. So, my only prayer is for me to always have the energy to attend to my two big girl jobs that I really love. I cherish them and I want to keep them, and when the time comes that I need to move on to better and bigger things, I hope to do so in the right way.

Okay that's all!! I'm in Starbucks Grace Mall and loving the aircon so much :D I claimed my free drink and you already know what I got.

you will feel so alive again.. like so incredibly alive. i dont know when that will be but it will be. u are gonna feel so alive that ur cheeks hurt from smiling oh man oh man i promise that day is coming. you do have a future, you do have good things coming, and you’ll survive everything that’s thrown at you until you reach that day

do you guys wanna see the most perfectest png of my cat

first semester goals: get a 4.0 gpa, do all readings and have comprehensive notes, attend all my lectures, start my papers three weeks in advance

second semester goals: don't kill myself or become an alcoholic

the intimacy of growing into who you are. 

I just got news that I’m being promoted. My first promotion in my first ever job. Bittersweet to think that this the kind of milestones I’m going for now—I didn’t realize how fast the years are going by. 5 years ago, I was lost, scrambling for my college tuition, just trying to graduate and hopefully find a job. Now, I’m at that job I didn’t take long to land, seeing my hardwork come to fruition and getting recognized for it. I’m eternally grateful for my boss for seeing whatever he saw in me when he hired me, when I had absolutely no experience under my belt, and took a chance on me anyway. Getting promoted by him also means the world to me. He has shown me nothing but kindness and support, and I feel so so blessed. I know I did all the work that earned me this promotion but I have to recognize the first person who saw that potential.

More than anything else, I want to thank God. I want to thank Him for heeding all my prayers wheneverI called and cried for Him. I give all glory and honor to Him, for all of His provisions, for the gifts that helped me get this job all those years ago, and for the strength to power through everything else that came after. Thank you, God. Always. I can’t ask for anything more than for more holistic strength and brainpower to keep going. I have goals but not one greater than my ambition to keep serving You.

I love you, Lord. Let’s keep going.