I Have Bipolar Disorder, Autism, And Social Agoraphobia. That's Why I Can't Work. I Have Had So Many

Daily Affirmation: My name is Blue, and I am able to learn new skills.

I cleaned my room and mowed the lawn today. So that's good.

I am sorry that I have trouble finding interesting things to say. The words just are not there. I try to think of words and there is nothing. I had to forget about my past. I have no stories to tell. I feel like I have a blank or empty personality. I am still figuring out who I am. Daily Affirmation: My name is Blue, and I am a new person.

I need to work from home because I get panic attacks. Making music is my best chance at earning a living online. I have depression. I have to start writing the sheet music now, while I'm not feeling well. The mental effort will slowly improve my mood as I work. Waiting for the depression to go away never works. The depression will always be there. The only way to improve the depression is to summon the willpower to be productive. I know that the music will be good enough to earn donations. I just have to have faith and trust the process.

I did some yard work today to make a little money. Tomorrow, I need to get up bright and early and panhandle. I did not choose to be disabled. I deserve to live well. Daily Affirmation: My name is Blue, and it is not selfish of me to ask for help.

I started a secondary blog for practice images: tumblr.com/bluesketchblue It's probably not worth looking at. But having a place to post my practice work will help to motivate me to do it.

One thing that I had to learn after my fundamentalist upbringing Is that it's not always healthy to forgive people. We shouldn't always turn the other cheek, And we shouldn't love our enemies.

Give me your energy, internet friends. It is so hard to push through the depression and do anything. I'm just gonna borrow your energy for a minute; I'll give it right back.

∅ Bonus post! ∅ I decided to put this back up, with a slight modification. Isn't it interesting that the pentagram symbol means something different, depending on whether it points up or down? I should not censor myself. I am Blue, and my mind is free!

Affirmation of the Day: My name is Blue, and I am a nice person.