Affirmation Of The Day: My Name Is Blue, And I Am A Nice Person.

I tried to quit nicotine again yesterday. Cue the instability and mental screaming. I couldn't do it. I bought some more nicotine. Panhandling annoys the conservatives, and it will pay for my nicotine. I really need to get out there and panhandle. The worst thing that could happen is a mugger tries to kill me and take my money. I am a giant. I have never been mugged before. The first person who tries to mug me gets to find out what it's like to have all their joints dislocated one by one. But that probably won't happen. I'll take a picture of the panhandling spot and post a tracing this evening.

∅ Behold, the artistic genius of Blue! ∅ I have truly captured the essence of architecture in this glorious image. Magnificent!

Okay, I need to get back to my art therapy. It is important to have a purpose in life. Daily Affirmation: My name is Blue, and I can be happy if I try.

I have a song in mind. Three singers, bass, baritone, and tenor, playing a guitar, a tambourine, and tapping sticks. I have to sing all three parts myself. If I don't write it down now, I'm going to forget it. I have imposter syndrome so bad. Or maybe it's learned helplessness. But I'll just do my best and then the result will tell us whether I'm an imposter or not.

I mowed the lawn today. Also, I guess I'm quitting nicotine today. So that's nice. I'll let you all know how that's going. I'm going to try to sleep off the nicotine withdrawal for a while.

∅ Hi, I'm Blue! ∅ I drew my first self-portrait! Don't I look fabulous?

Okay, maybe my community is more generous than I thought. I got 6 dollars in four hours of begging. That meets my fundraising goal for today. I just want to try to make 5 dollars a day to pay for my nicotine habit. I'm sorry I went off the rails there. I hate it when my anger takes over. The anger, I think, was a response to putting myself in a very phobic situation. Rejection hurts, but I should not wish others ill. Some days, the mental illness wins.

Thank you!

Hi, I'm Blue! I started a similar art project, to draw the word "Blue" over and over in different ways. You're a much better artist than I am. I like worms and bugs, too. It's fun to watch worms wriggle. My request for a worm is, I'd like a blue worm. Thanks!

123, blue worm

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My ability to draw is severely limited. I need to improve my skill in private to be able to continue with this art project. So there will be no more images for a while. Daily Affirmation: My name is Blue, and my existence has value.

I lost my job. Affirmation of the Day: My name is Blue, and my existence has value.