This Has 100% Been Talked About Before But Younger Members Of The Lgbt Community (especially On Tumblr)

Hello, unfortunately I am not receiving a stimulus check (not for lack of trying) and I continue to be chronically underpaid and underscheduled even with a +2 in Hazard pay per hour at work. I am an essential worker and I do not make more than $10 an hour with Hazard pay, excluding taxes and money taken out for vision coverage.

I know so many people are struggling during this time, but I am also out risking my health because I have to eat. And I continue to struggle with bills during the pandemic. My goal to get through the month is around $800. I appreciate everyone who has helped me more than you know, thank you all so much 💖

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Your Life is like a garden. Some flowers die, but make sure to plant plenty of Evergreens. :)

Jesus Christ Bless you all my friends!

every year around christmas me and my grandma play this fun family game called “maybe you want to put jesus in your room instead, sweetie? :)”. now, it’s important to note that the jesus referred to in our game is not actually the real jesus christ, but instead a wooden figure i made in 2011 that has an uncanny resemblance to the lord and savior himself

so what happens is that i place jesus in our living room, and my grandma smiles and asks me if i don’t want to decorate my room with him instead. i ask her in return if she thinks my jesus figure is ugly (which he is), but she reassures me that this is not the case. however, a couple of days later jesus mysteriously disappears from our living room, and appear in my room instead

now, the real jesus christ might have been able to perform a miracle like this, but please remember that the jesus in our story is only a figure made out of wood. he can not move on his own, so i think we can safely say that my grandma is the prime suspect here

the first year i would often confront my grandma about this, but she would always make up an excuse and never straight up tell me she moved him because he’s so ugly it’s an embarrassment to the family

eventually i grew tired of her lies, so now we only move jesus around in silence. one second he’s in the living room, the next he’s back in my room. in a way i think this adds an extra element of excitement to the holiday season, because you never know for sure when jesus is going to be moved again

We sharing anaesthetic stories?? I had to have dental surgery when i was in middle school.

According to my mom and sister the very first thing i did upon waking up was BOLT upright and proceed to try and shove my ENTIRE fist in my mouth as fast as possible.

I had to be physically stopped, and i proceeded to sob my eyes out for the next 20 minutes. Somehow, i didnt damage anything 🤣

sorry that imagery is so vivid i just..

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During my first month with my therapist, I was given this worksheet to read and work on. She noticed that while I was talking with her, that my thoughts followed a lot of these. I wasn’t aware that my anxiety had brought me down paths of low self-worth and stinky thinking.  After a couple of weeks of talking with her, she gave me this worksheet to work on. 

While, at first, I thought these weren’t going to work out, I was very surprised to see just how easy they were to use . My homework at that time was to identify which sort of thinking I used on the regular and which ones would best challenge them for me. So, what do you think? Do any of the maladaptive thinking patterns sound like you? which ways would you like to untwist your thinking? 

To be depressed is to be suppressed. Depression thrives in a passive thought process. In this case, it's harder to remember things or have basic ideas come to mind. It feels like a dark fog and it takes a lot just to think of one happy thought. In this situation it's important to make your brain work. Sing to the lyrics and dance a little to the music. Research a passionate topic. Talk outloud about the details of the day. Write a speed story and just write down what your brain throws out. There's a chance you feel no emotional reward for doing things that stimulate the brain to be more mentally active for a while which is okay because these are tips that will help you get those lovely ideas sooner and get your brain back on track faster. Don't worry about fighting decreased brain activity with positivity because in this terrible state positivity might not be correctly processed. Fight this suppression because of self-love and because you are certain you can win the war with depression. Remember your passions even when depression tells you that you don't care anymore. As always, God bless. :)

For the weary

You're in pain at the moment and so your perspective has narrowed for the time being. I will give you a helpful thought since your brain is hurting just trying to think of one good thing. Depression devalues a treasure and highly values trash. Right now Depression is telling you that your moment of pain matters more than anything else. It sells that lie saying this moment of pain is going to become your every moment. Every moment of your life has a different value. Do not put worth to your moment of pain so much so you decide this moment of pain, this moment of pure suffering, should decide that the value of any moment more is worthless. Don't let this dark moment determine the end of every moment. Let the moment of pain have its say, hear it out and allow yourself to not be okay. The moment of pain is worth that much. However, you must move on to another moment and when a moment gives you an opportunity for hope, also give that moment its say and then take those words of hope and use them to help yourself heal in life.

No, a lot of people don't understand giving up when they haven't faced your enemy. But what I think is most important is people learning their inner strength and finally creating a turning point in this terrible war against mental illness.

As always, God bless, and I wish you well and fierce with the battles that rage on.

Break out of the mold you made for yourself.

Allow yourself to be the more that you are.

You are more than the pain you feel and the bad days you have.

It's upsetting when life doesnt go the way we planed it to be. We plan with what we know and who we are in the present, but the future is a much bigger world with all new perspectives.