Battlegothic - Perpetual Remaker

Love when I get dysregulated by a trigger and the rest of my night until sleep is anxiety and being in freeze mode, barely able to eat or think a thought that isn't revolving around the trigger. Nervous system, ma'am, do you not think you're being a little dramatique

the life I’ve chosen to live

In the gay sex dungeon doing my crossword with a coffee, occasionally looking up with mild interest

One of the worst things about being codependent is having to remind yourself over and over again the inherent healthy separation between Self and Other

You know you fucked up when Count Dankula on your ass about being a Nazi

My bf is currently worrying about mystery money transfers out of his account into some random other bank account we are not familiar with. It doesn't affect our finances, more so his personal spending. Still concerning.

Why is it that I'm still suddenly a little kid freaking out that someone around me is upset and I have to fix it because the distress of other people is unsafe? Wack

I can provide him emotional and practical support but beyond that it is not my problem to solve. It is not my responsibility to fix.

(he's not asking or even expecting me to fix this problem, he's organising it all. I'm just built traumatised)

One of the worst things about being codependent is having to remind yourself over and over again the inherent healthy separation between Self and Other

i’m burning the candle at ends you’ve never heard of

I had to

I really like the type of brain worm that makes a person hyper fixate on a character who is present for like a scene or two from a game or whatever. Like what is even remotely compelling about Jean from disco Elysium. I guess the bitchy attitude that he brings to Harry and the possibility of reading that as Rife with sexual tension but I don't know that man's already plenty gay enough on his own