" You Still Have A Lifetime To Be Who You Really Wanna Be."

15 more seconds before midnight

I'm sitting here, staring at my phone

Thinking how to hit your phone up

Should I text you or hit the caller icon?

It's been a year since we last talked

Today, it's like my mind keeps drifting back into the memories you engraved in my heart a year ago

The Good morning texts

The later night conversations

How often we quarrel over what "we" really are

The time you told me

" I love you but I can't keep your heart."

It shattered me.

You were scared just as I was

But I never gave up on us

Sent you sonnets everyday

Sang you lullabies at night

Showed you my scars

For you, I turned myself inside out.

Still, my everything wasn't enough.

You came with the smile of October then left me alone with the gloomy November.

You left.

You left without a goodbye.

I tried to run after you in the dark

I called your name several times

On my knees, I fell to the ground

You're already gone

You're already gone.

15 more seconds before midnight

With tears in my eyes,

I put my phone down

And whispered into the void

" Happy birthday, I'm letting you go now."

-H.Asteid ,10-22

" You gave me no other choice but to be strong."

-H.Asteid

" What made you so afraid of people getting too close?"

-H.Asteid

Autumn Love

Our love was softly subdued, in shades of autumn amber hues. With leaves crunching beneath our feet, it was his love that began to destroy me.

Reciting our beautiful vows before the lord, we danced on a windless October night, to a haunted symphony of melodious chords.

Lost in the darkness of his hollow eyes, the exquisite mask he’d designed slowly fell, into decaying autumn leaves on the ground, and his love withered without ever making a sound.

© September, 2020  Kathlene

It was death that made autumn beautiful.

- H.Asteid

— Arundhati Roy, The God of Small Things

You're the winter that will never warm up to me

And the autumn that will never fall for me.

-H.Asteid

" This may sound crazy to you but...If she were a cliff, I won't even hesitate to take the leap."

- H.Asteid