Diary Entry #23

Diary entry #14

Cw family issues and slight sui themes

The wait to move out is killing me. I just want to live on my own already but I'm autistic and sometimes I screw over myself on accident. I've been binge eating a lot and it's distressing me.

I just want to start my life already. Sometimes I think of telling my grandparents I need to transition now or it's going to kill me, but I'm sure they won't believe me until it's too late.

They think my identity, my very being, is a joke. I hope it's funny. I hope they enjoy the fact that my life hangs in the balance, hope they get some sort of sick thrill out of it. I'm so enraged at them and yet I can't raise my voice at them. I just write posts on the internet, stuff I'm too cowardly to say to them irl.

They think I'm stupid, or at least too stupid to understand that I'm "being lied to" with "transgender ideology".

The internet and fox news has radicalized them into believing in the stupidest shit. They don't listen to me, and I don't think they ever will. Being autistic probably doesn't help me in this aspect.

I just want them to just come out and say more horrible stuff so I can hate them fully. I can't bring myself to not be a rug and not let them walk all over me. I sabotage myself so others, especially my family, can get ahead.

I don't know, I'm mostly just yelling into the void.

i love you, bald/balding trans girls. i love you, trans girls with hairy faces and bodies. i love you, fat trans girls. i love you, trans girls who can't raise your voices. i love you, trans girls with big jaws and adam's apples. i love you, trans girls with broad shoulders. i love you, trans girls with flat chests. i love you pre-E and never-E trans girls. i love you

Just a small reminder

Do not stop talking about Palestine

Do not stop boycotting, do not stop protesting, do not stop speaking out. Be the voice for those who had their autonomy stripped away. Be the voice for the people, the parents, the grandparents, the children, the infants. Be the voice for the animals, the trees, the buildings, the very soil that has been desecrated. Stand up for what is right in whatever little way is possible, but do not stop talking about Palestine.

DO NOT STOP TALKING ABOUT PALESTINE

DO NOT STOP TALKING ABOUT PALESTINE

DO NOT STOP TALKING ABOUT PALESTINE

TYSM!!

A dumb idea that I had while at work that is now real thanks to me drawing it: the alphabet mafia!! I think the term alphabet mafia is way too funny for conservatives to use, I kind of like it even if it's supposed to be bad lol

I tried to be creative with the designs but they kinda suck, also fun fact the bisexual person is nonbinary because I wanted to include a nonbinary person as well :)

[ID: a digital drawing with a rainbow pride flag background of the alphabet mafia, a group of queer people who have weapons and color schemes associated with their pride flags /END ID]

what this and the queen predictions have taught me is that the internet is kinda like infinite monkeys on typewriters; I suppose sometimes one person or more at some time before an event by chance typed a prophecy of sorts.

That was clunky but I hope i got my point across

The full thing for anyone who wants it!

happy pride, you do not have to be on/want HRT, have had/want surgeries, present differently, act differently, or tell a single person that you're trans in order to celebrate and be proud of yourself. pride is for trans joy & love for all of us

if you don't do anything else today,

Please have a moment of silence for the people who were killed instead of freed when news of emancipation finally reached the furthest corners of the american south.

have another moment for the ledgers, catalogs, and records that were burned and the homes that were destroyed to hide the presence of very much alive and still enslaved people on dozens of plantations and homesteads across the south for decades after emancipation.

and have a third moment for those who were hunted and killed while fleeing the south to find safety across the border, overseas, in the north and to the west.

black people. light a candle, write a note to those who have passed telling them what you have achieved in spite of the racist and intolerant conditions of this world, feel the warmth of the flame under your hand, say a prayer of rememberance if you are religious, place the note under the candle, and then blow it out.

if you have children, sit them down and tell them anything you know about the life of oldest black person you've ever met. it doesn't have to be your own family. tell them what you know about what life was like for us in the days, years, decades after emancipation. if you don't know much, look it up and learn about it together.

This is Juneteenth.

white people CAN interact with this post. share it, spread it.

otherwise interesting post ruined by the bold insistence that you can never accidentally abuse someone & that all abusive people are self-aware evil masterminds

dr. zomboss doodles

I hate this guy so much bro 😭🙏