I GOT FUCKING RICK ROLLING. ????

You can bend over backwards trying not to be one of “those” cringey queers who wears pride everywhere and goes by arson and has they/it/fluff/pixel/boo pronouns on a catgender pin they wear everywhere and suppress everything “extra” unlikable about your identity and pass as a “normal” cishet and mock everyone who dyes their hair for pride and wears rainbow nail polish and guess what? Conservatives will still want you dead. There is no appeasing them. Stand by your community. Maybe you’ll find that arson (they/it/fluff/pixel/boo) is going to be the best goddamn person to have in your corner when the republicans you’ve given up your life to placate inevitably turn on you and try to sentence you to death because any amount of queer is too damn queer. Maybe you’ll find that we are a community for a reason. We’re all equally degenerate in the eyes in conservatives and equally worthy of joy and life in the eyes of the “weird” queer community you shun.

when you get into a new hyperfixation but there's NO fandom<<<<<<<<<<

Be gay, trans and alive

I could be that transmasc friend!!

every transfem needs a little transmasc friend who had a cannibalism or horror phase for a few months to years and is obsessed with blood and every transmasc needs a little transfem friend who has rejected humanity and identifies as a dog & has memories of being a computer

you look great in that frog costume

This vid by Drew Gooden is incredibly informative and funny, and related to this. I recommend it

Also if you don't watch Drew Gooden watch him now he's awesome!!

Diary Entry #24: I am losing my mind send help :)))

Reading Becoming A Visible Man by Jamison Green. It's a fucking awesome book, I recommend any trans person read it (especially transmascs and trans men). I use Hoopla to read books free and without my grandparents finding out about it. (You use your library card.)

Tw dysphoria/mild anatomy terms? below cut

But besides that my day was awful, solely due to dysphoria. I had to stop singing to myself at work because I got too dysphoric about my voice (usually with my voice I pretend that it's coming from somewhere else other than myself, but something made me be unable to pretend for a second and I freaked out), kept having to adjust my bra because it doesn't fit right (making me aware that I have breasts, sometimes I forget), and I kept on seeing men that were enviable, gender-wise, which reminds me that I'm stuck in this body I don't want.

I might call the Trans Lifeline tonight because I'm freaking out about the legislation being put in place, and I haven't been using good coping mechanisms so I'm not having a great time.

It feels like everyday the dysphoria gets worse and I don't know what to do. I just want to feel like a man already, but it's hard to do so.

[Start ID: (tw suicide, briefly mentioned! Also family issues/transphobia.) a comic with OP as the character (medium/long hair, male, with glasses and button up shirt). First panel is him looking content, with an arrow pointing to him saying “completely fine”. Second panel has him looking devastated, with text behind him that reads “I have no friends or family to rely on. The world is burning, horrible people rule the world, and the ones that aren’t completely horrible are at least complicit in my suffering. Every “happy”moment I spend with my family is ruined by the fact that they don’t support me, and don’t think I’m capable of doing anything. I can’t die, because I refuse to be buried as a girl, so I have to suffer in silence with no one to help. Even when I (hopefully) move out and transition, what if I’m just faking it and my family doesn’t take me back? Best case scenario is that I get a found family, and good friends/maybe a partner, but for several years I will have nobody and will be mocked endlessly by my blood “family.” I am truly alone on this barren earth.” The third panel is the same as the first, with him standing there content with an arrow pointing at him saying “completely fine”. /End ID]

Tw- suicide, briefly mentioned! Also family issues/transphobia

Middle text if it’s hard to read: I have no friends or family to rely on. The world is burning, horrible people rule the world, and the ones that aren’t completely horrible are at least complicit in my suffering. Every “happy”moment I spend with my family is ruined by the fact that they don’t support me, and don’t think I’m capable of doing anything. I can’t die, because I refuse to be buried as a girl, so I have to suffer in silence with no one to help. Even when I (hopefully) move out and transition, what if I’m just faking it and my family doesn’t take me back? Best case scenario is that I get a found family, and good friends/maybe a partner, but for several years I will have nobody and will be mocked endlessly by my blood “family.” I am truly alone on this barren earth.

My grandpa is constantly watching fox news and they said something like "it's common sense" for ""biological men"" to not be considered women. It's poisoning his fucking brain, it's hurting people, and it's hurting me as well.

I am going to fucking strangle someone. I hate fox news, I hate the uk rn even though I don't live there.

For all my people in the uk, holy shit i am so sorry.

The fucking audacity of the judge to say that ruling the definition of woman is based purely on biological sex “is not a triumph of one side over another.”

As if this hasn’t just fucking decimated trans rights in the UK, made transphobia practically law and blatantly supporting the work of groups like the LGB Alliance.

How fucking dare they.

I am very stupid :)